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Tue, 22 Jan 2008
4 years ago today
It was four years ago today that life changed drastically for us. And
not in a good way. We were in a pretty happy place at the time,
having found out a week before that Christa was pregnant with our
third child, and just wondering how we'd handle and cope with three
small children. But it was four years ago today that Nate was
diagnosed with cancer.
Now here we are 4 years later. Nate is having fun in school, is
currently practicing for his part in the school play, he's taking
electric guitar lessons and is just signed up for his third season of
little league. He has become an avid reader, a big sports fan, a
video game addict, and a pal to his brother and sister. I know I'm so
overdue to post pictures and updates. But life has been good.
Here is my
journal entry for January 22nd, 2004. And here is my message
announcing our bad news, that I sent to family and friends, that night
4 years ago.
We're so thankful for how well Nate was done. And we're so proud of
our family, and how well we've pulled through the whole ordeal. And
we're happy that cancer is no longer the first thing we think of every
day. 18 months off treatment. And counting...
- Greg
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Thu, 26 Jul 2007
1 year off treatment and all is well
I wanted to mention that Nate had his 1 year off treatment anniversary
last week. And Tuesday he had his last LP (lumbar puncture) to check
for cancer cells in his spinal fluid. The results were clear, so that
is very good news. Unless something comes up, he won't have any more
of those. Also, his checkups and blood work now moves out to every
other month. We saw his friend Catherine at the hospital. She was
having a procedure the same day, for her end-of-treatment LP & BMA.
We got to have lunch with her and her family after recovery. We're so
happy for Catherine! And, now she gets to have ice cream before
bedtime, since she's no longer taking her chemo (6MP was the
troublemaker there). Funny how the little things matter so
much.
We've had some flu come through the house. Becca started running a
fever last weekend, and it looks like it's finally letting up. Oh, of
course, Nate started running a fever late Tuesday, the same day he had
his procedure. So... per discharge instructions, we put a call into
the hospital. His counts were good, so they said unless he exhibits
other signs that it could be an infection from the procedure, let's
proceed like he caught the bug from his sister. He was sniffly on
Wednesday, so he most likely just caught the same thing she
has. And now Christa has some sniffles.
Last weekend was our 13th wedding anniversary. Christa and I managed
to sneak off for a bit to San Francisco. Nana & Papa watched the kids
(including Becca with her fever), and we got to stay over in the city.
Saturday night we went to a cocktail party at the Asian Art Museum
with some coworkers, smoozing with other game execs and VCs. It was
to celebrate the Tezuka exhibit (here we are with Astro Boy). Kind of
fun. Just being out was worth a lot. We came home Sunday afternoon,
and we can't thank my parents enough for their help, especially with
the long night they had with the kids.
On a sad note, I'm going to point you to a story about a
boy we met at Give Kids The World during Nate's Make-A-Wish trip last
December. His name is Dana Gauthier, and unfortunately he lost his
battle with brain cancer last weekend. Christa had worked with his
mom, Cathy, at LSI Logic before Nate was born. It just so happened
that we ran into them at GKTW in Florida, while Dana was on his MAW
trip. Our hearts are with the Gauthier family.
So... off to bed now. I have to get my rest and keep from getting
sick.
- Greg
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Tue, 17 Jul 2007
Time flies when you're busy!

I've added a bunch of photos to the site... Check out the monthly
albums under 2007. As usual, I need to beg forgiveness for not
updating. I put a buch of photos up, so hopefully you'll enjoy
those.
So many things have happened since last update... a couple of
birthdays (Christa and I), Nate's school play, Little League, Easter,
a visit from Grandpa Neal, a quick trip away for Christa, school
ended, doctors visits, selling plums, a job change, swim lessons, and
so much more. I'm writing this from my feeble memory, so hopefully I
haven't forgotten too much.
Nate was in the school play, he was an elf. He seems to enjoy being
part of the plays. Christa helped out again, working in the green
room. As usual, the play was a huge, spectacular production. Two
complete casts (of scores of children), magnificent stage sets, superb
performances and singing by the kids. It's a joy to see. Along with
the play, Little League started and Nate had a great coach and team,
and really enjoyed himself this season. Last year between the rain
and weeks of time in the hospital, he sure didn't play much t-ball.
He was in farm this year and enjoyed it. He's a lot faster now, he
learned a lot about hitting (no tees in this league), and sure seemed
to enjoy it. He even did quite a bit of practicing at home, wanting
to get better. It's interesting to see him develop more on the
athletic side.
I changed jobs in March, leaving Yahoo and going to a little startup
called Twofish, Inc. My friend
Lee Crawford founded the company. We're in the games industry, which
is a first for me. However, I'm leading engineering developing the
platform to support community, commerce, etc. for MMO games, and I
have a lot of experience building platforms.. It's been a lot of fun
(I sure missed the small company environment), but it's been tough
building a team. The software industry is tight in the valley, with
the likes of Google and lots of startups fighting for the same people.
If you're a server-side Java developer, or a hot-shot web developer,
give me a shout. I might be able to use your help. Check out the jobs here. We're still in
stealth mode, but feel free to ask me about it.
We went up to Patty's house for Easter, and had all the kids together.
We also celebrated her son Brian's birthday. I put a few pics in the
album from the trip. We had lots of fun. The kids even went swimming
in the much too cold pool. They all enjoyed the egg hunt. Good times
with the cousins. It sure is nice to be close enough that we can get
together on a regular basis.
Christa took a quick trip to Minneapolis in May, for a girls weekend
with her cousin Amy. Amy lives near there, so the two of them had a
nice weekend together without their kids. There's a couple photos in
the album from the trip. I think they really enjoyed the time
together, and the break from motherhood.
There was a sad turn of affairs for the little boy Lance I mentioned
last summer in this
entry. I attended his funeral (it was the weekend Christa was in
MN) and it reminds me how far we are from the 100% cure we hope for in
kids with cancer. The service was a celebration of his life, but the
image of the tiny coffin still haunts me. Childhood cancer is the
leading disease cause of death for kids in the US. Lance had relapsed
last summer, had a bone marrow transplant, and had been doing really
well. Apparently he took a very unexpected turn for the worse. It's
truly unfair for a beautiful little 3 year old. Unfair.
Christa's Dad came and joined us for a week, and and got to spend a
lot of good time with the kids. We all went up to Tahoe, and spent a
day at the Renaissance fair up there. The kids had a good time and we
even managed to go check out the lake while we were there. Only
downside was I managed to tweak my back, and so that was
annoying.
June has had a lot of activity, the end of the school year being a
busy time. Christa has been very busy with all of that. She's going
to be the classroom coordinator for Nate's class next year, so that
will add to her workload. If anyone can handle it, it's Christa.
Right after school was out, the kids went up to Folsom and stayed with
Grandma Madie and Grandpa Bob. While the kids were gone, for
Christa's birthday, I took her to the Gwen Stefani concert with her
friend Anna and husband Dave. Everyone had a great time. I'll have
to put up the picture from there. Lots of fun.
We headed to Nana and Papa's house for the 4th of July with the usual
time in the sun at the lake and lots of kids playing in the water &
kayaking. As usual, lots of food and hanging out. The fireworks were
great but apparently not captivating enough to keep Andrew awake. He
was wiped from swimming, and not really liking the loud explosions of
the fireworks. I had to lug him up the hill to the car which is
getting to be quite the chore with my moose of a four year old.
Pretty soon he needs to start carrying me.
Last thing to tell about here is that Christa headed to Illinois with
the kids to visit her Grandma B. She'll get home in a couple of days,
so it's been quiet around the house here. I've been keeping busy
working and doing a few minor household chores. She is going to
really need a break when she get's back. Good thing it's our
anniversary and we're sneaking away for a quick overnighter to San
Francisco. Thanks in advance to Nana & Papa.
We're within a week of Nate's 1 year anniversary of completing his
treatment for leukemia. Our life has resumed a much more normal
pattern. And boy is it busy. A week from now Nate will have what we
hope to be his last ever spinal tap. It's a diagnostic test to check
one last time for leukemia cells in his spinal fluid. He has been
doing monthly bloodwork to check also. The bloodwork will continue,
but I desperately hope we're done with these. Last month we thought
we'd be doing it early. Nate had been having headaches, and that can
be a bad sign. So the spinal was scheduled, but the headaches seemed
to go away before we got to the procedure, and so it was rescheduled
to coincide with his 1 year mark. Let's keep our fingers crossed.
Oh, and Nate's friend Catherine from school is about to reach her end
of treatment point. Her 2.5 years of chemo are done. We're so
excited for her and her family. And, on a final, yet still cancer
related note, I was contacted by a family in LA who have a little boy
named Nathan that is 6 months into treatent for ALL. The mom had
found my journal here, and had been reading through it. The little
boy has the same TEL/AML1 genetic marker that my Nate did. And,
apparently, little Nathan has had a very similar hunger for sushi like
my Nate did (remember Nate here?).
Strange coincidence. They sound like a very nice family, maybe we'll
be able to meet them in person some time. Their little boy is on a
3.5 year chemo treatment plan (the protocols have changed since we
started), and is about 6 months in. We wish them all the best in
their long, long journey. I love to point to my little hero, as he
represents so much hope.
It's late, good night. Best wishes to all.
- Greg
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Tue, 13 Mar 2007
Trip to the snow

We took a trip to the Sierra's for a few days at the end of February,
and had a nice time. We were snowed upon, which made for some nice
power to play in. We rented a nice little cabin in Strawberry, up by
Dodge Ridge. Took the boys for ski lessons, but that was a bust. Too
crowded (they overbooked the classes), had to wait until later in the
day because the morning classes were full. In general a bust.
We did some sledding on the hill across the street from the cabin.
Somebody's backyard, as it was. But, they didn't seem to be around
and we made a nice little sled run, and had loads of fun.
Lots has been happening around our household... Nate is in the middle
of the school play right now. He performed twice last weekend, and
had his final performance coming up this weekend. Christa is helping
in the green room, and so she's busy with that also.
Other than a few sniffles, we're all doing well. We're enjoying this
spring-like weather, for sure.
To help with the pace of updates to the website, I'm writing
instructions for Christa. As she rightfully pointed out, rather than
have to rely on me to update it, I need to show here the tools I'm
using to do this. Should pay off for anyone bothering to check the
site.
Take care
- Greg
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Sun, 31 Dec 2006
When you wish upon a star...

We're back from Nate's Make-A-Wish trip! It was incredible. Let me
fill you in on the history, however. In November of 2005 Nate met
with the Wish folks, and wished for a trip to Disney World at
Christmas. Well, they couldn't make it happen for Christmas '05, so
tried to talk him into Feb. or April of '06. He was adamant about
Christmas, and said "I want to go to Disney World at Christmas. This
Christmas, next Christmas, or the Christmas after that". So,
Christmas '06 it was planned for.
We left on the 21st, with a big black limo pulling up in the driveway.
The limo took us to the airport, where we flew to Orlando by way of
Dallas. Once we arrived in Orlanda, a greeter was waiting from Give Kids The World (GKTW). He helped us get
to our rental car, and get us on our way as quickly as possible. We
drove our rental minivan to the Give Kids the World village. Upon
arrival, we checked in inside the House of Hearts. They had stuffed
animals (Shamu and Mickey) for the kids, and tshirts for the kids.
They gave us some information, and sent brought us to our villa, where
we'd be staying. It was late in the evening, and it was great that
they had stocked our fridge with milk, juice, etc. Also, there were 5
sandwiches waiting in there for us, since we had missed dinner
time.
The villa is a 2 bedroom, 2 batch duplex. There's a small kitchen and
a living room. The kids get the master suite, complete with bathroom
with jacuzzi tub and large shower. Christa and I got a bedroom with a
a small bathroom off the hallway. This is give *kids* the world,
after all. I'll post some more pictures from GKTW soon (nice pics of
the village). The Give Kids The World provides the stay free of
charge, breakfast and dinner daily, free ice cream, all sorts of great
little perks. Inside the Castle of Dreams, on the ceiling are
thousands and thousands of small shiny stars. Each one has been
signed by a child who has stayed at the village. And now, Nate's star
has joined the others.
Friday morning (the 22nd) I met for GKTW orientation, where I was
given the free tickets to Disney, SeaWorld, Universal, and other
information. After that, we headed to Disney World's Magic Kingdom.
We drove in, had free parking because of our GKTW parking pass,
boarded shuttle in the parking lot, took that to the ferry boat, which
took us accross the lake to the park. The scale of things at Disney
World is incredible. You have to take mass transportation (ferry or
monorail) from the parking lot just to get to the Magic Kingdom park.
We went into the park, rode a few rides, then met up with Grandma
Madie and Grandpa Bob. We rode quite a few rides. Nate wore his
Make-A-Wish shirt & hat, and had a lanyard with his GKTW button.
Between that, and the special access pass I wore around my neck, we
had quick access to all the rides. Rides that took fast-pass would
take us right in, and those without fast-pass would usually take us
through the disabled access or the exit. It sure beat standing in
line. Sometimes I would feel a bit guilty about it, but I guess it's
just karma earned for waiting in the hospital for innumerable hours
over a couple of years.
We spent all day Friday at the park, watched the fireworks, then
headed over to Bob & Madie's hotel for dinner. Actually, they all
went there, I went to find the car (at which point it started to rain
heavily. I met back up with them in the Mickey restaurant at their
hotel. We headed home a little later with a bunch of very tired out
kids.
Saturday we did more of the same... we met Bob & Madie at their hotel,
walked over to the Magic Kingdom, rode a couple rides, and watched the
Christmas parade. We then headed over to Epcot Center (via monorail)
and rode a few rides there. Late afternoon, early evening we started
checking out the different "countries" as part of the Epcot park, but
then started to run out of steam. We parted ways with Madie & Bob,
and headed to back to Magic Kingdom so that we could experience the
electric parade (or whatever it's called now). That was fun. We also
rode Pirates of the Carribean again (which the boys loved, Becca not
so much). After that we headed back to get our car at Madie's hotel,
and took our gaggle of very tired kids home.
Sunday we went straight to Disney's Animal Kingdom park, and met Bob
and Madie there. We wandered around there all day, and in the
afternoon Bob and Madie took off to meet up with Madie's brother Don
who came into town. We finished out the day at Animal Kingdom, and
headed over to Bob & Madie's hotel about dusk. The kids wolfed down a
few chicken nuggets (dinner of champions, for sure) at their hotel
room, and we headed back to Give Kids the World to finish out our
Christmas Eve. This included visiting Mr. and Mrs. Claus in the
Castle of Dreams (who had presents for all the kids), and ice cream at
the ice cream parlor. After a baths we got the kids to bed so that
Santa could visit that night.
Monday morning the kids woke up bright and early (Nate led the charge
and happily woke up his brother and sister) to discover that Santa had
found us all the way in Florida. After opening presents, we headed up
to the theatre, where Mickey Mouse, Pluto and Mary Poppins were
visiting the kids. We had our picture taken in the theater with the
characters. The kids played with their new toys for a while, and then
we met up with Bob & Madie, Martha (Madie's sister) and her husband,
and Don (Madie's brother) for lunch. We went to a nice seafood
restaurant at Downtown Disney, and had a nice meal (far better than
the park fare). We had planned to stay and do some shopping there for
souvenirs, but it started pouring rain, torrential almost. So, we
loaded up the kids and headed back to GKTW. We had planned to swim
that day at the village, but the pools were closed because of the rain
and lightning. We still had a good time, and Bob and Madie joined us
later in the day for dinner at the village. This was our last night
at Give Kids the World, and we were making the best of it. It was
nice to have a sort of "down day", enjoying the village.
Tuesday morning we packed up and headed out of GKTW. We decided to go
to SeaWorld, and check out the marine life and shows. It was much
cooler now, and threatened to rain a few times. We watched the
dolphin show and whale show, went through the sharks exhibit, and
tried to feed or touch a dolphin. We were too late for the feeding,
and the dolphins were tired of people by then, so didn't get to touch
them. We headed out just after dark, and drove to Cocoa Beach, on the
Atlantic side of Florida, to stay at our hotel on the beach. We got
there in the evening, grabbed some sandwiches for dinner, and hung
out.
Wednesday morning we ate bagels and cereal at the hotel, which was an
old-school single-story job, right on the beach. We spent the day
running down to the beach, building sand castles, etc. It was pretty
cool, with a brisk wind, so we didn't end up swimming. I shipped a
couple of packages home that afternoon, since we had sooo many toys,
etc from Christmas and our trip. We had a nice dinner at a local
restaurant, and spent some time packing up our stuff that evening.
This was to be our last night in Florida.
Thursday morning we headed out early, stopped by the Starbuck's in
Cocoa Beach (there is a serious dearth of espresso in Florida), and
drove to Orlando to catch our flight home. Many hours later we had
traversed an entire continent and arrived at SJ airport. There, our
driver picked us up (this whole chauffer limo thing rocks), and we
rode home in another stretch limo (Andrew called it the "big fancy
car"). About 5pm we arrived home, hungry and tired, having finished
our big trip.
The Christmas lights were on, our house was warm, and there was a
large pile of packages inside that had arrived while we were gone.
Thanks to Pat & Larry for turning on the heat and lights and putting
the boxes inside each day! I ran to get spaghetti & meat balls, we
ate dinner, and had our third or fourth Christmas for this
year.
This was the blow-by-blow of what happened... we'll post some more
highlights from the trip. I wanted to get this up here, along with
the first stab as posting photos. I hope you all enjoy.
Merry Christmas, and have a Happy New Year!
- Greg
PS - I realize it's been 3 months since I updated the site. I'll try
to do better.
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Wed, 13 Sep 2006
No' Mo' Chemo Party Pics...

Ok, I put up some pictures from the No Mo' Chemo Party. There are a
lot more for me to sift through and publish. The pictures of Nate
seeing his trophy for the first time are great. Click the picture to
see the album.
We've been busy lately, Christa and I are working on the school
directory for Nate's school. There's about 280 families in the school
and it's quite a bit of work. We spent Labor Day weekend working in
the evenings to get things going. Luckily, Michelle, the former
directory person, was very very organized, and we were able to pick up
most of what she did very easily. We haven't done the page layout
portion yet, so that might get tricky, but we'll be working on that
soon. Updates for the info should start trickling back in soon from
the families, so lots of data entry to come.
Andrew and Becca started preschool... Becca is in Teacher Anna's
class, for the 2 year olds, and Andrew is in Teacher Nancy's class for
the 3's. They're loving it.
Currently Nate and I are at $825 of donations towards our goal of
$2000. We only have one month left to reach our goal. Please help
the cause, support research for cures for blood cancers, and make a
difference in the lives of families devestated by leukemia, lymphoma
and other blood cancers. http://www.active.com/donate/ltnSanJo/MyHeroNate
Good night!
- Greg
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Tue, 29 Aug 2006
No' Mo' Chemo Party
Saturday, August 26th we had a party for Nate. It was a big party, at
Lakewood Park in Sunnyvale. Probably close to 200 people showed up,
with a very large number of them kids. He had friends from Washington
Open, from SCPNS and elsewhere. All of his cousins showed up. This
was all to celebrate finishing treatment. There was a magician to
entertain, and Ben & Jerry's ice cream guys scooping out ice cream.
We had frisbees made to give away. It was a grand time. We presented
a trophy for completing treatment, and he was beaming. The magician
brought him up in front of the audience and definately made him feel
special.
We have a lot of photos that I need to go through from the party, and
I'll get those up here soon. Also, I'll post our thank you letter that
we handed out on Saturday. So much to do...
Yesterday was Nate's first day of school. He's a big 1st grader now.
As luck would have it, he had a low fever yesterday morning and wasn't
feeling well. So, he missed the first day of school. Very
dissapointing for us, and a bit for him. Well, he's off to school
today, so hopefully all is well.
On a final note, Nate and I are raising money for the Leukemia and
Lymphoma Society. They support research and patient care and provide
educational services to newly diagnosed patients. We'll be walking in
the Light the Night at Burgess Park in Menlo Park, on October 14th.
Nate will be there holding his white balloon, which recognizes his
survivorship. We'll also be participating in a foosball tournament
fundraiser at my work, Yahoo!
. We've set a very high goal for fundraising, and we could use
your help in getting to our goal. Please see our donation page, and
we'd love your financial support, if possible. http://www.active.com/donate/ltnSanJo/MyHeroNate
Thanks,
- Greg
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Fri, 25 Aug 2006
Sad note, camping and more camping.
I'd like to first mention that a friend of ours, a family we've
connected with because of cancer, found out their little boy has
relapsed. The poor little buddy is just about 2 years old, and it
appears will be headed for a bone marrow transplant as soon as he's in
remission and a donor match can be found. This is very sad news.
They live close by here in Santa Clara, and we'll help them the best
we can, but please keep little Lance in your prayers and
thoughts.
I took the boys on a quick camping trip 2 weeks ago. We went all the
way to Saratoga Springs (about 15 or 20 minutes from home). Nate's
friend Zach, and his dad Eric came with us. It was a lot of fun. The
campground is a bit cramped, but there's a swimming pool and a little
arcade, and they had a big inflatable slide and jumphouse. Those were
great, but I think the highlights were throwing rocks into the creek
we were next to, and, of course, the campfire. Little (and big) boys
like to burn stuff, so that provides lots of entertainment. It's a
pretty spot, but next time we'll plan ahead better and reserve a spot
at a state campgrounds, like Big Basin, or somewhere. As soon as I
get the photos together, I'll post them.
Last weekend was my annual camping trip with some buddies. It was a
good time. Francis and I drove up together, and we met Mike, Rich,
Keith and Randy up there. The usual fishing, campfires and beer type
event. Rich brought his ham radio and made contacts with people
across the US. We caught a lot of fish, ate too much and drank too
much. All, in all, a good time. Pics are here.
Good night.
- Greg
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Sun, 06 Aug 2006
Camps and visits and hardwood floors.
Nate is off at Camp Okizu this
week. 6 days. Without mom or dad. By himself. With lots of other
kids that have cancer, or are off treatment. Crazy... 6 years old,
and off for a week with strangers. Are we nuts? Probably. Okizu is
a beautiful place, where kids with cancer hang out with other kids
that just "get it". Bald heads don't get stares. Wheelchairs are
fine. Steroid puffy cheeks are normal. Where one minute you're
shooting arrows at the archery range, and the next you're getting the
bandage on your Hickman changed and the lines flushed. It's a special
place, run by special people.
Christa headed to Nana & Papa's last Sunday with all the kids. The,
Monday morning she drove up to Berry Creek (near Oroville) to drop
Nate off at camp. She said not many kids were there yet (the buses
hadn't arrived yet), so he got lots of attention from the counselors.
Probably a good thing for the transition. Then Christa went back to
Nana & Papa's and has been there all week. Tomorrow morning she'll go
get Nate and head home. It's about a 4 hr drive from Camp Okizu to
home. She's awesome.
Well, last Sunday after Christa left, Rich came over and helped me
move our couches and a big cabinet (thanks Rich!). Then, I ripped up
the carpet in the living room and down the hallway, and then cleaned
out all the tackstrips and staples. Monday a guy showed up and
started the work of sanding, repairing, and then refinishing the
hardwood floors. They finished on Wednesday, but I haven't moved much
back in, because I was being careful of the floors. Take a look!
Now, I've been slowly working on putting it all back together... the
dust is crazy, and gets everywhere. But at least the kids were gone
while the fumes from the polyurethane dried.
One more thing... If you're inclined to track my posts via RSS, you're
welcome to. Here's the link to the Doane RSS feed 
Good night.
- Greg
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Thu, 20 Jul 2006
Nate is officially off treatment. OT. Done. Finished. Cancer free.
How many days left, Nate?
That's right. ZERO! You're done!
Nate had a spinal tap and a bone marrow aspiration yesterday. This
was end of treatment diagnostic tests, to confirm that he's still in
clinical remission. And, it's confirmed. He's still clear of cancer.
We're ecstatic. I've been walking around today, telling everyone that
"today is a great day".
Here's some numbers:
- 2.5 years = 30 months = 130 weeks = 910 days = 37% of Nate's life being treated.
- 2 surgeries
- 4 bone marrow aspirations
- 18 lumbar punctures (spinal taps)
- Around 200 blood draws, probably 140 of which were from his arm
- 9 different chemo medications (dexamethasone, methotrexate, cytarabine, vincristine,
6-mercaptopurine, 6-thioguanine, cyclophosphamide, daunorubicin, PEG asparaginase)
- dozens and dozens of IV punctures
- thousands of pills.
- 3.5 weeks of overnight hospital stays
- ER visits at 4 different hospitals
- 1 new sibling
Now what? Nate becomes a "normal" kid. We hope to not have cancer be
always at the forefront of our lives. But, it's not gone yet. 3 more
spinals. Monthly checkups and labs. Friends still being treated.
Our efforts to help improve the process for other families. For Nate,
eventually it'll be the afterthought. Or the "remember when ..."
Let me leave you tonight with a little photo album, mostly about treatment.

Good night.
- Greg
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Wed, 19 Jul 2006
The last day.
Only 1 day left!!
I'll add more info, later. Honest. All the details about a long day
at the hospital followed by a quick trip up to SF to the Giants game,
watching them win with a bunch of other Make-A-Wish recipients.
Good night.
- Greg
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Tue, 18 Jul 2006
2 days left, a junkie in the making
Only 2 days left!!
A couple days ago, Nate was saying "I can't wait until Tuesday". I asked why, and he said two things: "the baseball game we're going to, and my procedure.". I asked why he couldn't wait until his procedure. He replied "because I really like the feeling of the gas, the sleepy medicine". There you have it. My 6 year old is an anesthesia junkie.
- Greg
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Mon, 17 Jul 2006
3 days left
- Greg
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Sat, 15 Jul 2006
1 hand, 5 fingers
Nate can now count on 1 hand the number of days of chemo left!
Good night!
- Greg
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Fri, 14 Jul 2006
First day of the last week.
I filled Nate's weekly pillbox with his last 20 chemo pills. How
'bout them apples?

I added a bunch of pictures under the
2006, July category. This includes and the new loft bed in the
boy's room, and Becca's new bed. Our baby is out of her crib, and
into a big girl (or boy?) bed. I think she might be the next Danica
Patrick!
Oh, and I put some pics up from our Giants vs. A's game last month.
They're in June
- Greg
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Wed, 12 Jul 2006
8 days
The countdown is seriously on. 8 more days.
On another note, I changed the photos section of the website, since
I'll be using a new tool to generate my photo albums. It'll be much
easier for me to put pictures up, now. Check it out.
- Greg
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Mon, 10 Jul 2006
Two hands, 10 fingers. It's within our grasp.
It now only takes two hands to count the days of chemo left. Before
tonight's dose of mercaptopurine, he only has 10 days of chemo left.
That means he has completed 900 days of chemo. To put it in
perspective, Nate is only 2467 days old.
Of course, the fun isn't over. Next Tuesday Nate will have a spinal
tap and a bone marrow aspiration. They'll be checking for cancer
cells. If I'm a little blue that morning, it'll surely be from
holding my breath. He will continue to do his bloodwork on a monthly
basis, and every 4 months will have a spinal to check for
relapse. Even when the cancer is over, it's not over.
We were up at Nana and Papa's house for the 4th of July. We had a
nice time, the kids did a bunch of swimming in the lake, and all the
crazy cousins where there with our crazy kids. We watched fireworks
on the 4th, and Christa and I, being a little crazy ourselves, packed
the kids in to the car and headed home about 11:30pm. We got home a
little before 3am. Gotta say, the kids travelled well and there wasn't
much traffic.
Thanks for checking in!
- Greg
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Fri, 16 Jun 2006
"Miracle of my life"
Today Nate finished kindergarten. He graduated. I told him tonight
that now he's a first grader. He said "no, I'm a no schooler".
That's Nate.
A couple days ago, it was almost bed time, and I asked Nate to come
over to the counter to take his chemo. He expressed his frustration
at having to take his meds. I told him "well, don't worry, it's not
much longer". He said, "yeah it is, it's like 3 more months or
something". I smiled at him and told him it was less. He guessed 2
months, and I smiled again, and said less. He seemed pretty happy
when he guessed 1 month. I told him well, just a little longer than a
month. He replied "that's the miracle of my life."
I thought to myself, "Yes, it very well could be."
- Greg
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Sun, 11 Jun 2006
Toddler Slobber
Since all I ever write about is the trials & tribulations with Nate, I
figured I'd offer up something funny from the other day. Christa was
at the store with Becca and let her play with her phone. Now, Becca
can be quite persistent, and if she's not occupied, she wants to go
get into everything in the store. I'm sure Christa locked her keypad
so that Becca couldn't make any calls. But, we learned something
about toddler slobber. Later, when Christa wanted to make a call, her
phone wasn't working. She discovered on the screen that it said "*Car
Kit*". Basically, the phone had detected that it was plugged into a
car installation kit, and using an external speaker & microphone. Of
course, it wasn't really. But it thought it was.
I figured it needed to be reset or something. I searched online, and
the first article I found said "I let my baby play with the phone, and
they drooled all over the phone, and now it says 'Car Kit'". I
laughed and had Christa read it. Hilarious. I guess it's a common
problem with these phones, the LG VX3200.
Turns out the problem was the liquid get's into connector, shorts out
the contacts (makes an electrical connection), and then the phone
thinks it's plugged into the car adapter. There were a range of
solutions from resetting the phone to opening it up and drying it with
a hairdryer (yeah, I guess a bunch of people end up going for a swim
forgetting their phone is in their pocket). Resetting didn't work,
hair dryer didn't work, but opening it up and blasting the connectors
& circuit board with electronics cleaner seemed to do the trick.
Beware the dangers of Toddler Slobber!
- Greg
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Fri, 02 Jun 2006
We're home.
Labs done yesterday morning showed Nate with an ANC of 110.... not
enough to get out, by itself. However, his monocyte count was pretty
high, which indicates that he's got a decent chance of fighting
infection. And, the trend is for rising counts, so Dr. Twist sent us
home. We got out just after 1pm. It was simply awesome. Of course,
Nate, being the contrarian he is, didn't want to leave. Because he
didn't get a chance to go to the playroom to play video games yet that
day. Go figure.
Today Christa, the kids, and Neal (did I mention Christa's dad is in
town?) hung out at home mostly. We're going to keep Nate away from
people for a few days, get labs done next week, and hopefully his
counts will be nice and high then. Of course, that means we'll resume
chemo then, also. Ick. But, we're almost done.
Oh yeah, and I finally changed the photo on our homepage
here... Christa has been asking me to for, what, like 6 months or
something.
Thanks for checking in with us. Good night!
- Greg
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Tue, 30 May 2006
Oh where, oh where, have my little neutrophils gone...
Well, yesterday's labs had Nate with a white blood cell count of about
2000, but an ANC of 44. Today his WBC was up some more, but his ANC
is like 36. BTW, the difference between 44 and 36 is negligible. So,
he's still inpatient. Vicki came back down (she rocks!) again last
night, watched the kids today while I went to work. Christa is stuck
at LPCH. I went to the hospital after work, Christa came home for a
few hours, then headed back up there. Now, I'm home, and will go to
work tomorrow.
Christa's Dad comes into town tomorrow from Illinois. We were
supposed to go to Tahoe this coming weekend, but at this point I'll be
happy to just have Nate home. Debrah and Catherine stopped by today,
since Catherine had her pentamidine appointment today. The went to
Camp Okizu last weekend, and brought some goodies for Nate.
Apparently Okizu got a bunch of swag from Lucas, star wars gear. That
was really nice.
So, life is hectic, as usual. We're on our, what, 6th straight night
of this hospital stay. Our record is 8 days, set in March. We surely
don't want to break that record!
Good night!
- Greg
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Sun, 28 May 2006
Camp Lucy
Camp Okizu we did not make. Instead, it's Camp Lucy. As in, Camp
Lucille Packard Children's Hospital. Nate's counts on Thursday were
low (ANC was 300) and his fever persisted, so admitted we were. It
took a few tries to get an IV in. A couple different nurses,
including Verna tried but failed. She's had good success in the past.
They managed to get Beth from the PACU to come downstairs to clinic
and try his IV. She got it in on her second try. So, he's got his IV
in the crook of his left arm. It took a couple hours to get the IV
in, long enough that Nate's oncologist ordered up his antibiotics to
be injected into his thighs to get him started. Luckily they got the
IV started at that point, or we would have had 3 shots to his thighs
and still would have had to get an IV in.
We headed upstairs to 2N. We passed a large group of very sad people
in the hallway outside the PICU. Christa later read the online
website about a boy,
Nicholas,
we met earlier this year. He passed on Thursday. I'm sure it was all
of his family and friends. I don't know what else to say.
Vicki came down and watched the kids on Friday so I could go to work.
Christa stayed at LPCH with Nate. We've been swapping who sleeps
there each night. Tonight will be my night. Luckily Nate has been
feeling pretty well, even though his fever persists. We're now at 7
days straight of fevers. It hasn't gone much about 103, and he's had
no fever some of the time, but it's not gone. Next labs will be
tomorrow, but I doubt his counts will have recovered much. The good
news so far is that his liver enzymes are coming down, moving back
towards normal. They were high last Sunday.
I have to say Nate is quite the trooper. Getting the IV in sucked,
but he's been very brave for all his other blood draws. He's had
draws done Sunday, Tuesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday. Each time his
fever would spike back up, they'd do another clean blood draw to start
blood cultures looking for bacterial infection. All of that has been
negative. The resident the other day said he had a crackling in his
right lung and that the chest xray showed it wasn't fully inflated.
Christa said that it sounded fine today according to the doctor.
We've been tossing the football in the hallway quite a bit, and lots
of walking around and heading to the playroom. Hopefully the activity
has helped.
This afternoon, Nate's friend Jackson and his dad are visiting Nate.
That's very nice of them. I'm sure it'll help break up the tedium of
a day in the hospital.
I'll try and update again tomorrow night. Thanks for checking in with
us.
- Greg
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Wed, 24 May 2006
Wow... 2 months.
It's 2 months since my last entry. Why so long? Maybe because we're
busy. Maybe because I'm lazy. Maybe both.
What did the last 2 months bring? A trip to Illinois to see Grandma
B, Grandpa Neal, Uncle Larry, and all of Christa's relatives. Trip
went well, had a great time, stayed at Grandma's house, she just loved
Becca (who was quite the charmer). I've got a ton of pics, need to
post them.
How are the kids you ask? Well, Nate broke out with hand/foot/mouth
disease (the coxsackie
virus) on May 12th, so he stayed home from school. Luckily he
didn't have a fever. Christa went to her mom's on the 13th for
Mother's Day, stayed over and came home Sunday the 14th. We were
supposed to go to Courageous Kids Day at Great America for a fun day
for cancer kids, but since Nate had newly broken out, we didn't want
to expose any other cancer kids. Sunday night Christa started running
a fever with a sore throat. A couple days later Andrew started a
fever and sore throat. A few days later Becca started running a
fever. And, unfortunately, Sunday the 21st Nate started running a
fever.
Of course, Nate's fever meant an ER trip, so off to Stanford we
headed. His counts were good enough to send us home, though (ANC was
1200 or something). His fever has persisted since, and he did labs at
his clinic visit yesterday, and barely escaped with ANC of 670 or so.
He has still had a fever today, and we'll be headed to clinic tomorrow
morning for a follow up. I'm just hoping his counts are still high
enough to escape the hospital. If he's still febrile and his counts
drop below 500, we're gonna be stuck in-patient running IV
antibiotics. Oh, and he feels like crap since he's running 102 or 103
fevers, so I really really want those to go away.
Almost forgot to mention... we were planning on heading to Camp Okizu
for family camp this weekend, Memorial weekend. Looks like those
plans are shot. My kids are all gonna be bummed, since they've had a
grand time there before and were really looking forward to
it.
Anyone for a big serving of crap sandwich? Good night.
- Greg
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Fri, 24 Mar 2006
Nate is out.
Here it is, Thursday 3/23. And Nate is out. Done. Gonzo. No longer
in the big house. His ANC today was 750, so they said "see ya". How
about that?
Andrew was happy to have his brother home. We're all happy to be
together.... at home!
Good night.
- Greg
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Wed, 22 Mar 2006
We have found Neutro Phil!
Our favorite superhero, Neutro Phil, has returned. And, he came back
with 449 of his friends. Nate's ANC is now 450. Awesome. Very, very
good. The magic number is 500. The way things currently stand, it is
very possible that Nate will get released from the hospital tomorrow.
They'll stop the vencomycin, which he's been getting because of the
bacterial growth in the blood culture (which they suspect is due to
contamination... maybe of the sample).
So, what a difference a couple days make. I gotta run. Christa has
been up at the hospital since last night, and I'm gonna swap out with
her for tonight.
Thanks for the positive thoughts, prayers, whatever else is making for
Nate's recovery now.
- Greg
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Sassy punk.
Yesterday we talked to the attending oncologist, and he isn't as
concerned with the slow recovery as I had picked up from the other
doc. In fact, he said that if Nate's counts keep heading up, even if
slowly, then he's not gonna do the bone marrow aspiration on Thursday.
One point he made was that since we're treating Nate w/ antibiotics,
his body doesn't really have to step up an immune response to fight
it. So, maybe his counts would be going up faster if he wasn't on
antibiotics. Kind of weird, but that's what we got from it.
Nate's doing pretty good, actually. He's a bit of a punk, very sassy.
He's been going to school in the hospital (they have the
kindergartners from 9;30 to 11:30), so that keeps him occupied for
some good periods of time. Also, he's been in the play room when it's
open, and been playing the playstation games in there.
Yesterday I came up to the hospital at lunch, and after work. Christa
went home for a few hours last evening, and then came back. Nate was
asleep, so I actually got to sit and talk with her for like a half
hour. I miss that. :-)
Thanks for checking our site.
- Greg
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Tue, 21 Mar 2006
Litte bits of information.
Little bits of information can make such a difference. Especially
if the parent's of the sick kid are left out.
It's Monday night, what has happened. Nate is still inpatient.
Friday night I stayed with Nate at the hospital. He was still running
fevers. His IV antibiotics (cephtaz) continued every 8 hours.
Saturday afternoon I snuck home for a while (Christa was there).
Christa was staying Saturday night, but then she became sick. So, at
2:30am I headed up to the hospital and switched out with Christa. If
we're sick, we can't be around Nate since he's severely neutropenic.
Sunday morning at 3:30am or so, Nate was running a 102.4 fever... this
called for yet another blood draw for a culture. At 5:30 am, he had a
100.3 fever. When he woke up at 8:30am, he had no fever. He was
feeling good, etc. I was starting to get hopeful. His counts were
now ANC of 100, but not rising very quickly.
About 2pm, the resident doctor said that LPCH had a bed opening up and
that they wanted to transfer us up there. I was thinking that was
great, but why now? It seemed Nate was doing well, his fever had
dropped, and he was acting quite good. Our room mate seemed like he
needed to go up there more than us. But, whatever, they had already
arranged for the ambulance for transport.
So, hastily we packed up our belongings (luckily Madie was there to
help), and Nate and I took the ambulance ride to LPCH. We got our own
room, since he had a history of RSV, they thought they'd keep him
separate to start with. The resident, Nancy, came in about 5pm and
started to fill me in. She said that because Nate's fevers had
persisted for 4 days with IV antibiotics, that they were getting
concerned it could be a fungal infection. They wanted to schedule a
CT scan for Monday to check sinuses, lungs, etc. Also, his ANC was
not rising very fast, so they were worried about that, especially
since they had seen 1% blasts in his first blood test from
Wednesday.
That's when the little bit of information, such a small piece of
information, finally was told to me. Blasts. Blasts. As in "Acute
Lymphoblastic Leukemia.". Over 2 years of chemo, and here I'm
getting the information that maybe the cancer was back.
She went on to explain that none of the subsequent blood tests showed
any blasts, but that's not conclusive. Also, the bone marrow can spit
out immature cells (blasts) when it is severely stressed. But, we
would schedule for a BMA in a few days, and if his counts don't
improve, then we'd be checking his marrow.
To make my evening even better, late last night the nurse mentioned
that it sounded like the doctor wanted to do a spinal on Nate on
Monday. I asked her to have the doctor come talk to me. If they're
going to do a spinal, then there was some new information that I
hadn't heard. And damned if I'm not going to get the information
right away. For a long couple hours, here I am thinking that the
latest blood work showed something bad. And they wanted to check for
CNS relapse. Yeah, so about 1am, she was in the room and said "sorry
about that information, the spinal was for a different patient". That
sick knot in my stomach could relax. A little.
Here we are Monday night. No CT scan was done today since Nate has
remained afebrile (without fever). And, one of the multitude of blood
cultures run over the last 5 days grew some bacteria. So, a specific
antibiotic (need to get the name from Christa) is being administered
via IV every 8 hours for the next 7 to 10 days. They mentioned that
it is hard on the veins, and he's had the same IV in his hand since
Wednesday. It won't last much longer. They're talking about putting
in a PICC line (temporary central catheter), which should help.
Typically they do that under sedation, but I'm thinking we'll be
putting Nate out for it. He doesn't sedate well, at all.
That's what I got for tonight. We're not out of the woods yet. If
his ANC doesn't recover soon, we're doing a BMA Thursday, checking for
relapse. If his ANC recovers, and his fever stays gone, then we might
get sent home with his PICC line in, and we'll administer his
antibiotics. We'll have to see.
This is scary, scary stuff. Please keep the good thoughts coming. No
fevers. Lots of neutrophils. NO BLASTS! That's what we need.
That's what Nate needs.
- Greg
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Fri, 17 Mar 2006
Where, oh where, have those neutrophils gone?
Nate's CBC from today had a WBC of 0.9, with no neutrophils in the
differential. Still an ANC of 0. Christa has been up there since this
morning, I snuck into work for a while. Came home to a corned beef
and cabbage and potatos dinner. I'm heading up in a couple minutes,
Christa can come home and sleep here.
Nate got his IV disconnected for a little while this morning, and was
able to ride a big wheel around the hospital hallways for a little bit.
Tonight, however, Christa said he was pretty tired, and had started
to spike a fever ( like 102.7). That means a needle stick for a clean
blood draw to run blood cultures.
Madie came last night, she's awesome. She's been watching Becca and
AJ today. Nana and Papa showed up tonight, and they're now down
visiting with Nate. Papa brought his PS2 for Nate to have for video
games in the room. We'll hold out for tomorrow on that, otherwise
he'll try and stay up all night.
That's is for now. Thanks for checking in. Send Nate some positive
thoughts.
- Greg
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Thu, 16 Mar 2006
Nate is stuck in-patient... fever & neutropenia strikes again.
Nate is stuck in-patient. We went to Valley Medical Center last
night, went straight to the pediatric ward skipping the nasty ER.
After several hours, we finally got an IV in... (several attempts by
different nurses). They started the cephtaz antibiotic. The staff
has been very good, and the residents split time between Stanford &
Valley, so that's part of the "overflow" agreement they have w/
Stanford.
Nate's CBC from 1am this morning showed that his WBC went up some
(from .5 up to .9), however there were no neutrophils showing up in
the differential, so he's basically a 0 ANC. Bummer. We'll see how
long he stays this time.
Christa came up today w/ Becca & AJ so they could see Nate for a bit.
Then I brought the little two home for naps, got cleaned up, we'll
have dinner, then we'll head back up again after dinner. Christa will
then come home w/ the little ones, and I'll stay over w/ Nate again.
I'll update as I can.
- Greg
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Wed, 15 Mar 2006
Off to the hospital
Well, Nate is neutropenic, and running a fever. Off to an inpatient stay we go. Oh, and with a twist. Stanford doesn't have any beds, so we're going to Valley Medical Center. Lovely. Good bye.
- Greg
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Sat, 04 Mar 2006
Here's our blue monkey!

- Greg
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Fri, 03 Mar 2006
Opening performance!
Tonight is the opening performance of Dr. Doolittle, the school play.
Nate is a blue island monkey. He's gonna be in a 3 performances, two
this weekend, and one next weekend. It is quite the production, with
about 90 students in the cast. Oh, and of course, that's not enough.
There's actually two entire student casts, each with about 90
students. Oh, but wait, there's more. There is also an entire adult
cast, made up of parents and teachers. Crazy...
Christa is working the "green room". I guess she tells the kids when
to go on or something. With tons of kids waiting to go on, I
understand it is quite hectic. Especially some of the young ones who
don't wait so well.
No monkey pics to post yet!
- Greg
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Wed, 22 Feb 2006
Spinal Day
Today Nate has a spinal. It's not his last spinal. However, it is
his last spinal that will put chemo into his cranial spinal fluid.
After this one, we stop bathing his brain in methotrexate. There will
be a few more spinals, but they'll be just for testing for leukemia
cells. After today's procedure, all he'll get is his usual daily and
weekly oral chemo medicines. Exciting and scary.
- Greg
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Mon, 13 Feb 2006
AJ's birthday pics are online!
I put up Andrew's birthday pictures. Check them out here .
Well, we've made it through the day without requiring any medical
attention... Now let's see if we can make it through the
night.
- Greg
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Sun, 12 Feb 2006
Counts are good, getting antibiotics, coming home
Christa took Nate up to Stanford Medical Center ER about 5:30pm. His
labwork came back and his neutrophil count is good (ANC of 4000 or
so). It's now 9pm, and they're waiting to get a shot of antibiotics.
It sounds like this is a one-time deal, and he won't have to take his
Augmentin over the next 10 days.
At least they don't have to stay. Maybe we'll even all get healthy
sometime.
- Greg
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Uggghh. Fever, again? Of course we should be so lucky.
Crap. We've got a reading of 100.8 from Nate. If we get a second reading of greater than 100.3 an hour after the first, that means we're paging the oncologist. And, it usually means an ER trip for blood counts.
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Ahhh... nap time.
Well, it's Sunday. A week since we got out of the hospital. What's
happened in a week? Let's see....
Nate spiked a fever Monday afternoon, I came home from work, hauled
him to clinic, they took blood and did labs, and we got sent home
since his ANC was 1200. Wednesday Nate has his usual weekly labs.
Wednesday afternoon Andrew woke up from nap crying and crying, finally
telling Christa that his ear hurt. Wed. night we took him to the
"after hours" pediatric clinic, and found out he has an ear infection.
The treatment? Give pain meds for a few days, and if he gets over it,
then we're good. If he's still hurting, start antibiotics. Nate's
blood counts were good, so he resumed his oral chemo starting Thursday
night. I started feeling like I was having allergy problems Friday,
but it appears that I've caught a cold. I don't feel too bad, but
have a runny nose, watery eyes. This morning at 5:30am Nate came into
our room complaining of an ear-ache. So, off to the urgent care
center he went (when they opened), and he has an ear infection also,
so he started antibiotics (he can't "tough it out" because of his
suppressed immune system). Andrew has been sneezing and blowing his
nose. Probably the cold I have. But, he's in a good mood and acting
pretty well, otherwise. Nate ate very little so far today, and when
faced with taking his antibiotics, promptly worked himself up and
threw up. I guess one more pill was the straw to break that camel's
back. Then he laid down and fell asleep.
So, right now Becca & Nate are napping, Christa has Andrew off to the
movie store, and I'm trying to get some work stuff done. Oh, and of course,
keep our loyal readers up to date.
Thanks for reading, hope you and your family are well.
- Greg
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Sun, 05 Feb 2006
We've busted out!
Nate and I busted out. We headed home this afternoon. Hopefully his
fever won't rise above the magic threshold that qualifies for a trip
to the hospital. His blood labs this morning showed his ANC at 480,
and counting in the monocytes, meant he was on his way up for immune
strength. And, he hadn't had much of a fever since last night. Dr.
Marina sent us packing. Of course, if he breaks the 100.4F
temperature range, then we might end up heading back. Let's keep our
fingers crossed. Oh, and Dr. Marina said no school until we get lab
results Wednesday, so Thursday at the earliest. Christa is bummed,
because they've been talking up the 100th day of school for Wednesday,
and Nate will probably be really dissapointed.
Christa took Andrew to the doctor today (since he'd had about 4 days
of fever), and they said, yep, he's sick. He has a cold or something.
We're guessing it's the same RSV that Nate has.
I thought I'd mention a little bit about why Nate had to be
hospitalized. Treating Nate's leukemia means killing white blood
cells. This causes his immune system to be suppressed. Two weeks ago
he had injections of vincristine and also took dexamethasone for a
week. This was in addition to the mercaptopurine he takes daily and
the methotrexate he takes weekly. Well, the chemo caused his blood
counts to dive. His hemoglobin (measure of red blood cells) dropped
below 10.0 for the first time in a year and a half (below 8.0 means
it's time for a transfusion). His platelets dropped (but were still
in a normal range), and his white blood cells dropped significantly,
dropping below 1000. He had an ANC number of 400. Anything below 500
signifies neutropenia, a situation where the body can't fight
infection on it's own. So, when he started running a fever, and
because he was neutropenic, that meant that IV antibiotics had to be
started right away as a precaution. If he happened to have a
bacterial infection, it could become systemic and cause sepsis
in a rapid period of time (hours). This can be fatal. Over the last
3 days, every time Nate's fever ran above 101.3 or so, the
phlobotomist would be called to take a fresh blood sample to run a
blood culture (to detect bacterial infection in the blood). Even
though he was given IV antibiotics the whole time. So, our poor
little buddy has been stuck a bunch of times. The good news was that
he only needed a single IV (it worked the whole time), and it only
took 2 tries to put that one in.
Keep your fingers crossed or say a prayer for us. Hopefully the whole
family can get better quickly. Oh, and thanks to Sabine and family,
Kristen and family and Cheryl and family for loaning GameBoy games and
other activities for the hospital stay.
- Greg
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Sat, 04 Feb 2006
Nate's in the Big House
Well, we didn't make it. I was hoping we'd make it through the entire
treatment without requiring a hospital stay for F&N (Fever &
Neutropenia). Well, Thursday morning we got a phone call from Lynn
saying that Nate's labs were back and that he was neutropenic. I had
already dropped him off at school so he could go on a field trip to
the planetarium. Well, as luck would have it, Thurs. afternoon he
started running a fever. That's an automatic trip to the hospital for
more labwork. And, he was still neutropenic, so he was admitted to
start immediate IV antibiotics. He's in room 2331 (2 North, the
oncology ward) at Lucille Packard Children's Hospital at Stanford
Medical Center. He's got a nice single isolation room, since he
tested positive for RSV.
Sounds like he's going to be there until tomorrow, at least. We're
watching his neutrophil count, but it's not coming up too
fast.
Christa and I are taking turns at the hospital (one night each, so
far), and we did the switch yesterday in the parking lot. Andrew is
sick (he's been running a fever and coughing like mad), probably with
the same RSV that Nate has. He's been coughing lots and waking up,
too. Becca is still a little sniffly, so maybe they all have the same
crud. Who knows.
Some of our very nice friends from Nate's school are letting him
borrow Game Boy games, etc. It's hard passing all that time in the
hospital.
Take care, I'll update when I can. The silly hospital still doesn't
have internet access for us, beyond a single public-access computer!
- Greg
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Sun, 22 Jan 2006
2 Years and Counting
Two years ago today, the doctor told us that Nate has cancer. Two
years. Wow. And now, he has a short six months of treatment left.
That's only 26 more blood draws at the lab, only 195 more methotrexate
pills and only 312 more mercaptopurine pills. And, I believe, only
one more spinal tap with methotrexate into his cranial spinal fluid.
Nate is currently in the middle of a steroid pulse... 7 days of
dexamethasone. He's managing well. Maybe, because he's older, he can
manage his emotions better. Or maybe he tolerates it better. He's
definately a little hyped-up and less focused. He's a little obsessed
about playing Yi-Gi-Oh cards, and that's getting annoying for us.
But, in all, he's doing well. He had an injection of vincristine on
Thursday, and will have another on the 26th. He'll finish his
steroids then, and I don't believe he'll have to take any more from
that point. Thank goodness.
Saturday is Andrew's 3rd birthday. He's getting to be such a big boy.
I asked him how old he was gonna be on his birthday. He gave me a sly
look and said "twelve or something". He's very funny.
Becca is all over the place. She is learning quickly from her
brothers, and does quite a nice job of pouting. My little actress.
Take care, I hope to update with pics from Andrew's bday soon.
- Greg
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Sun, 25 Dec 2005
Christmas Eve
'Twas the night before Christmas, and all through the house, not a
creature was stirring, except for my computer mouse... Here it is,
Christmas Eve, I'm sitting up waiting for Santa, so what better time
to write an update.
We're staying home for Christmas, taking it easy for the holiday. The
kids have been very excited, having a hard time containing themselves.
Just a few short hours and the whole Christmas carnage will be over.
We went a bought some more organizing buckets from Ikea in
anticipation of the wave of new toys.
The kids have some sniffles and coughs, and Nate has been nursing a
cough since just after Turkey Day. Well, this last week it developed
into pneumonia so he's been on antibiotics. Luckily he's on break, so
he won't miss any school. I'm hoping that he'll get over the whole
thing soon. It's hard, because they've been so full of energy, yet
running around outside just starts the coughing fits.
Becca is walking all over the place now. She even walks part way
around the block, when you can get her to leave the occasional cat or
flower alone. She's a real crackup, and is starting to say quite a
few words (although we're probably the only people who understand what
she's saying ;-) ).
Last weekend we were up at Nana & Papa's house, along with all my
sisters and their families. All 10 grandkids were together, and had a
great time, as usual. Several of them were either getting over being
sick, or just starting, so we're lucky if all we get out of it was
some sniffles. Madie & Boby joined us there, also, so they got to
enjoy some of the Doane Family Christmas Choas.
As usual, we're behind on our Christmas cards, so we'll get those "New
Year's" cards out soon.
Merry Christmas,
- Greg
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Thu, 17 Nov 2005
Mid November Update
Just thought I'd do a quick update. All is good. Becca is finally
starting to do some walking. She gets very silly, though, and starts
to laugh, or dive towards us, or whatever. She's crazy, but funny.
She is doing great with her sign language. Tonight she was sitting in
her high chair, and asking for "more cookies" in sign language. She
definately gets her point across.
Andrew took us all to his pre-school last Saturday. We had fun
checking out his school, and he showed off his toys. We all
participated in circle time, which was a lot of fun. He has a great
teacher, whose son Jackson happens to be in Nate's kindergarten class.
And Nate is doing well. Things are on track, he's been well. He has
been having trouble lately with his weekly blood draws, and Christa
said today it took a long time to get him settled down for it. We're
not sure what's going on with that. He's been doing them every week
for well over a year with no troubles. Just lately he seems to be
afraid of them, and starts stressing out.
The big news here is that Sunday afternoon, the Make-A-Wish people
will be hear to meet with Nate, and find out if they can grant his
wish. He's not sure, though, what to wish for. He said he's nervous
he'll wish for the wrong thing. What a nice problem to have.
Take care,
- Greg
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Mon, 17 Oct 2005
Nate's Birthday Pictures are up.
The birthday pictures are
here. 
Hi everyone. Nate had a good 6th birthday. We went to the pumpkin
patch on his birthday, and picked out the great pumpkin to bring home.
It's now time for the rule: You can have it if you can carry it. Nana
went with us over to Half Moon Bay. It was a great day on the 8th.
The 9th wasn't so fun. Our next door neighbor died after a fight with
cancer. He was much too young, and I think his wife, Mary Beth, and
kids (13 and 12 years old) were surprised by how quickly he went. I
have known Mary Beth since I was a small child, when she used to
babysit for my parents. They are really nice people, and this is
tragic.
Nate was sad to find out about Bob dying. This was the first person
that he knows that has died of cancer. I think he's getting old
enough to start to understand the scope of cancer. Well, about 10:30
that night Nate woke up having a hard time breathing. He was very
scared, crying, and working hard to breath. He kept crying out "am I
gonna die?". We tried to calm him down, since the stress was only
making things worse. We decided to err on the side of caution, so we
called 911. Nothing like a big fire truck and ambulance in a small
court like ours to get people outside. The paramedics checked him out,
and determined his lungs were clear, but that he was having trouble with
his airways in his throat. Basically, it was a case of croup.
Since we already had the ambulance here, we decided to go for a ride.
After a few hours in the El Camino Hospital ER, a couple of breathing
treatments, and a couple shots of dexamethasone to the butt, and Nate
was doing much better. We headed home about 2:30am. Our other next
door neighbors were so kind to drop off my truck at the hospital so
Nate and I could just drive home. That was enough excitement for one
day.
Now on to fun stuff.. We had Nate's birthday parties (one with
friends, one with family) yesterday, and it went very well. Some of
his kindergarten and other friends came, had cake, opened presents,
jumped on the trampoline, and just had a great birthday
party.
Enough for tonight. Good night and take care.
- Greg
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Fri, 07 Oct 2005
Someone's birthday is coming up
Tomorrow is Nate's 6th birthday. Wish him well.
- Greg
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Wed, 05 Oct 2005
Can you say VZIG ???
Turns out they managed to find a dose at Stanford yesterday. So last
night we took Nate to the day hospital, and he had the lovely
experience of a shot into each thigh muscle. Two nurses, one shot
each, simultaneously. He wasn't happy, but he recovered well.
Let's just hope that does the trick.
- Greg
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Tue, 04 Oct 2005
Crapola....
Yeah... so, here we are, in the middle of Hell Week (this is a steroid
week for Nate, and he's exhibited some 'roid rage) and we get a call
from a school mate's mom saying that Nate was exposed to chicken pox
this weekend. Such an ordinary childhood illness. And yet very seriuos
for leukemic kids.
So, after talking to Nate's nurse practitioner, she says to come in
right away and they'll administer VZIG injections into each thigh.
This is an immune booster for varicella zoster (aka Chiken Pox virus).
Then she calls back and says she talked to the pharmacy and they don't
have any at Stanford. It takes 24 hours to get it (something about
the pharmacy not stocking it anymore). And so, instead, we should
just do nothing and keep an eye on Nate. I'm not happy with that
answer. If they had it, they would give it to him. So, maybe we
should be trying to get it from somewhere else? I'm now waiting for a
call back to discuss this more...
- Greg
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Wed, 07 Sep 2005
Yahoo! : Becca turns 1, School Starts and Camp Okizu
Becca is now 1 year old. She had a nice party here at the house, ate
lots of cake, and generally was the life of the party. All the
cousins were here (and the auntie's and uncles!), along with
grandparents. She sure loved that cake. She's been crawling for a
while now, and she's gonna walk pretty soon. Her 1 year checkup
showed her to be very average in size... right at the 50% mark in
height and weight. She's getting big, but she's still our little
baby.
Nate started kindergarten last week. He's now in elementary school.
What a big guy. He seems to like it so far. He's only missed one day
so far, for a scheduled spinal tap w/ chemo. Back in the end of July,
beginning of August, he had 2 weeks off chemo because he was
neutropenic. His protocol says to drop the Septra, so we have. Now,
he get's a once-a-month breathing treatment at the hospital with
pentamidine, instead of the Septra. It's kind of nice we don't have
to remember to give him the Septra 3 days a week. Hopefully his counts
will stay up now. He has less than a year to go!
Andrew started pre-school this last week. He's in a 2's class, and a
parent has to work in the classroom. He only goes once a week, but
he'll have a great time. His very nice teacher is no stranger, as she
has a son in Nate's kindergarten class.
We spent the Labor Day weekend up at Camp Okizu. What a great bunch of
people they are. The counselors are all great with the kids. We left
Becca w/ Nana and Papa, so we didn't have to worry about her. The
boys went canoeing, did some archery, the ropes course, games and lots
of carpetball. It was a lot of fun to watch Nate go down the zip line
on the ropes course, with no fear. And then we were amazed that
Andrew did it also, all by himself. Snug in his harness, he sailed
across the creek hanging from the cable. How's that for a 2 year old!
And finally, I've started a new job. I'm the engineering manager for
the Yahoo! Avatars team. I know, I know... I sold out. A management
job. What a waste of a good engineer, or something like that. If you
use instant messenger, please use Yahoo! IM. If you use it, create an
avatar. You can go to the Yahoo!
Avatars page .
- Greg
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Sat, 30 Jul 2005
Off chemo again, and a great anniversary getaway.
Nate is off chemo for a week, again. He was neutropenic on his blood
test Wednesday, so we withhold chemo for the week. That generally
gives him time for his neutrophils to recover. This is the second
time in a month, a little bit troubling. It could be because he has
a virus, could be because his bone marrow is "tired".
Last weekend Christa and I snuck away for our anniversary. It marked
11 years of marriage. Auntie Reggie came with her daughters Missy &
Meghan, and they watched our three little ones. Christa and I snuck
away to San Francisco for the weekend, and had a great time. Thank
you Auntie.
Well, Christa and I are off to donate blood. And we have a party to go
to this afternoon.
Take care, all.
- Greg
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Tue, 12 Jul 2005
House O' Sickness
Well, here we are in the middle of summer and everybody here is sick.
Let's run through the last few weeks.
Two weeks ago Nate's labs had an ANC reading of 470, indicating
neutropenia (a very week immune system). So, he had a week without
his oral chemo. This was right before the weekend of the 4th.
Rebecca came down with a cold and was feeling bad perfect timing, so
we decided that I would take the boys up to Nana & Papa's for the 4th,
and if Becca did better, Christa would drive up and join us. And
that's what we did. We headed up Saturday evening and the boys were
excited to see all of their cousins. Complete pandemonium it was.
Christa said Becca was much better on Sunday, so she drove up in the
morning and joined us. That was great.
The kids swam in the pool at the clubhouse, they swam in the lake,
paddled kayaks around (Papa just bought 2 kayaks), had a great time.
We all watched the fireworks on Monday night sitting on the grass down
at the park where they shoot the fireworks over the lake. Lots of
fun. Tuesday the 5th we headed home. Christa left w/ Becca in the
morning, and I took the boys in the afternoon. Of course, by this
point, the boys were starting to catch the cold. Andrew was barking,
and you could hear it in Nate's voice. After dropping something at my
sister's house in Tracy, Andrew then promptly threw up the french
fries and milkshake (yeah, I might win Father of the Year award for
that stellar meal) all over himself. So, there were are on the side
of the freeway, with the wind whipping by us, and I'm trying in vain
to clean some of it up. It was nasty.
So, the kids were sick during the week, and we all hung out at home.
We had a camping trip planned for the 11th -> 13th with our friends,
the Sipes. Jeff and I were gonna take our kids camping, minus the
babies. Yeah.... so... Saturday night I woke up with a fever. Felt
like crap. All day Sunday I felt bad, running a fever. The boys
still had barking coughs, that sort of thing. We called off the trip
for sure today, since I'm still running a fever. It's lower now, but
I still feel cruddy. I guess I have the flu. In July. That sucks.
Oh, and to top it off, Christa was sick last night too, we think it
was something she ate. She is much better today, but she was
seriously out of commission last night.
When it rains it pours. Take care.
- Greg
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Tue, 21 Jun 2005
Happy Birthday Christa!
Today is my lovely wife's birthday. It's also the day of our summer
solstice. Coincidence? I think not.
I've been remiss in updating the website. It's been more than 2 whole
months. All sorts of stuff has happened. Lots of birthdays,
including Christa's mom's 60th. That was a big party in Folsom. I
had a birthday, and even snuck out with some buddies to dinner and
drinks. Nate graduated from pre-school. Sort of. He missed the last
days, because he and I took a trip
to Kodiak, Alaska! The boys started at a new swim center, and
they're both doing great. Rebecca is now 9 months old, and such a
little cutie. Andrew has just learned to ride the tricycle, and he's
having a grand time with that. My little software company was almost
acquired by a bigger company, but that fell through. So, now I'm
looking for a job, and enjoying the summer so far. And Nate just had
a spinal and a week of his steroid.
On the Nate front, he's doing well. Everything is according to plan.
On the June 9th, he had a lumbar puncture to inject chemo into his
spinal fluid. He also had an injection of vincristine, and started a
week of dexamethasone, his nasty steroid. I spent a lot of time
giving Nate lots of attention to manage his moods. The steroid makes
him crazy. Madie came down and stayed with us, and that was very
nice. Thursday, June 16th, Nate finished the steroid, and had another
injection of vincristine. His IV went well, he only did a little
freaking out. Of course, he was overly sensitive because of the dex,
but he did very well. That night, Christa and I snuck out to a late
movie while the kids slept and Madie kept watch. Thank you Madie!
Nate has now come down off the steroid, and is closer to normal. He's
had some issues in the morning, a little vomiting and some headaches,
but he's getting better. It's probably all due to the steroid. He
perks up after a Zofran and some food, and then does well the rest of
the day.
Well, that's it for now. I'm gonna try and clean up the house while
Christa has the boys at the park, and Becca is still sleeping here.
- Greg
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Mon, 04 Apr 2005
Happy April
Here were are, April 4th, and it's been almost a month since I wrote
an update. Life has not been boring, and the kids have been keeping
us busy. In that last month we began spring, there's been one
scheduled clinic visit for chemo, one unscheduled trip to the ER, 3
kids with fevers, and Nate is now wandering around toothless (he's now
lost both of his top front teeth). Read on for more details.
My last update said Nate was neutropenic. Well, he recovered the
following week (a week off chemo helps), and so he had his spinal tap
on March 17th for chemo to the cerebral spinal fluid. Funny thing was
I ran into someone I know in the recovery room. Her son had just had
his tonsils out. Either it's a small world, or we spend too much time
at LPCH.
We headed up to Christa's mom's house near Sacramento for Easter
weekend. We got there in the evening, the kids were very excited,
everything was good. We put them to bed, played a little cards and
visited. About 2:30 am Saturday morning, Nate woke up crying saying
he didn't feel good. Sure enough, he had a 100.3F temp. So, he slept
in bed with me, and Christa went and slept in the other room with
Andrew. About 4:30 I took Nate's temp again, and this time it was
102.4F so I woke up the on-call oncologist. On the prior Wednesday,
Nate's ANC was about 1000. But, the doctor wanted new labs, so that
meant we were heading for an ER. We decided UC Davis Medical Center
in Sacramento was a better choice than a local ER, so he was nice
enough to look up a phone number for me. By this time, Bob & Madie
were awake, as was Christa. So, Bob went with Nate and I to
Sacramento. We were quickly brought into a room after seeing the
triage nurse, which was good considering the waiting room was packed.
They have a nice separate pediatric ER. The nurse had some EMLA for
Nate, to prepare him for the stick. We never mentioned he was getting
an IV to him, so he was pretty good about the needle stick. After she
was already in, and getting blood, he noticed it wasn't normal
phlobotomy needle in his arm, so he started to get very concerned,
asking "am I going to get an IV?". She told him "honey, you already
have one". This was the best IV stick in quite a while. After the
usual wait for labs, his ANC came back at about 10,000. So, after
conferring with Nate's oncologist, they decided he could go home, and
tough it out the old fashioned way, taking Tylenol and lots of fluids
and rest.
The rest of Easter went ok, Nate was obviously not quite himself, but
the boys enjoyed the egg hunt. Our original plan was to head to my
parents' house on Sunday, but decided against it because Nate was
sick. No sense getting everyone else sick, and he'd be better off at
home. So, we went home Sunday. Monday afternoon Andrew started with
a fever and was obviously sick. Thursday Rebecca ended up with the
fever and was sick. Luckily they all recovered within a few days, so
that was the silver lining. But, it was a long week.
This coming weekend is the blood drive that Christa organized. Drop
us a note if you're in the area and want to donate blood on Saturday.
- Greg
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Thu, 10 Mar 2005
A small delay...
Nate's weekly blood labs show that he's neutropenic. This means his
body has almost no infection fighting ability, and puts him at risk
for catching bugs. It also means that we don't administer his daily
6-mp chemo, or his weekly oral methotrexate pills this week. As long
as his blood counts come back up for next week, he'll get his
intrathecal methotrexate next Thursday (St. Patty's day). This is the
first time that chemo has been held due to low counts for Nate. I
know many other children that have had delays on a very frequent
basis.
Rebecca had her 6 mo. checkup this week. All is well. She's about 15
lbs, and I don't recall how many inches. She's tracking at about 25%
on height and weight. Obviously she's much smaller than the boys.
She had some shots, including a flu shot now that she's 6 months old.
She's had a low fever since, so maybe she's suffering the effects of
the vaccine.
We're enjoying beautiful weather here... hope all is well with
you.
- Greg
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Mon, 07 Mar 2005
First teeth
Rebecca has her bottom two teeth breaking through. You can see and
feel them now. We're lucky she's actually a very good baby. She
seems to have been sleeping less during the day recently, but we're
not sure if that is a change in her schedule or just because she was
getting teeth. She also has been suffering some cold symptoms, which
is not surprising considering Andrew has another cold. Our house has
been germ central for the last 2 months. I think we've had continuous
colds for that long.
Andrew started a pre-school type class (sort of a Mommy & Me class,
where Christa hangs out with him at the class) last week. He missed
out today because he's fighting a cold. And, he loves his little sister
so much that she's bound to catch whatever he has.
The weather was beautiful this weekend, and I had the pleasure of
being invited to "special persons day" at Nate's preschool. Saturday
morning we went to school for a while. It was nice. And yesterday I
had the 2 boys helping me change the oil in the truck. Lots of fun.
Andrew kind of lost interest after bumping his head a few too many
times under the truck. Instead they ended up playing in the truck
while I did the oil change. Later AJ, Nate and I had a watergun fight
in the back yard. It was nice to be outside with some sunny
weather.
Nate did fine at getting his blood draw last week for labs. After 2
weeks of bad experiences with IV's, we were a little worried he'd be
stressing. But, he just sails through the blood draws. Next week
he'll be having a spinal tap for chemo into his spinal fluid on St.
Patrick's day. He'll be getting an IV for that, but hopefully he can
remain calm for that. The IV can go into the crook of his arm, so
that is good. The last couple IV's had to be into hands or feet for
the chemo, and so that break from his usual pattern just adds stress.
After this spinal, no more procedures until the beginning of June.
We'll just keep up his daily and weekly oral chemo.
- Greg
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Wed, 23 Feb 2005
Only 2 doses left this round...
Well, Nate has 12 doses of steroid in him, and 2 left to go. Tonight,
and tomorrow morning, and he'll be done with the dexamethasone for the
next 16 weeks. I'm back to calling him Senor Loco. He is
"amplified". His excitement can be excessive, his neediness is
excessive, and his anger can be nasty. Poor Andrew takes a lot of the
brunt of that. Of course, he does things just to agitate Nate, so I
guess it is expected. Nana & Papa came down on the weekend, and Nana
is staying with us through this week. It's a big help. And, she is
getting lots of good time with Rebecca, while Christa tries to keep
the boys happy. We all got to watch Nate eating half of a tray of
shrimp cocktail at 9am the other day, so at least we provide
entertainment for our guests.
We got some good news today. Nate will be going to Washington Open,
the elementary school in Santa Clara that we were trying to get into.
It's a public school, but has more applicants for kindergarten than
open spots, so they run a lottery for those openings. At least that
clears up one uncertainty for the next year. I guess I'll have to
start thinking about how elementary school and leukemia will work
together.
- Greg
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Tue, 08 Feb 2005
I forgot to update...
Last week's trip to the ER ended with Nate's ANC being about 5500
(which is nice and high for him), so we got sent home (at almost 4am).
His fever was gone by the end of Tuesday, but he had some sniffles and
a bit of a cough through the rest of the week. So, all those pokes
just to draw a bit of blood. Next time we're going to manage it
better, more proactively. If Nate is running a low-grade fever during
he day and we don't have current labs, we'll take him in for those
labs during the day. That way we'll know his counts, and it's more
likely we'll get to stay home and miss the ER.
Christa was fighting some cold symptoms last week, but didn't seem to
get hit too hard. Friday night I started coming down with a cold. It
hit me hard Saturday and Sunday. I'm feeling somewhat better today,
but now Andrew has the drippy nose. Poor little buddy has bright red
cheeks from wiping his face across his sleeve. I came up with a
product idea. How about tissue sleeves, that go over the forearm on a
shirt. The little kids wipe their noses with their sleeve anyways, so
this way you put the tissue on there, tear it off when it needs
changing, and put on a new one. Product names? How about Green
Sleeves? Or Booger Sleeves?
- Greg
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Tue, 01 Feb 2005
Almost 1am and we're not enjoying the ER
It's almost 1am, and we're not enjoying the ER. Nate was running a
fever today, not enough to land us in clinic. This evening, his fever
went up above the magic 101 point, and that earned us a ticket
straight to the ER. Of course, once here, we got to wait a while. We
did get our own private room, eventually. However, poor Nate was
quite the pin-cushion, as the nurses tried to get an IV into him.
Right arm, left hand, left arm, and finally, the winner, the left
foot. Poor buddy. At least we came up with a joke about it later:
Q: What has more holes in it than a slice of swiss cheese?
A: Nate!
Hopefully his blood counts come back good, and we simply get to add
Tylenol, and go home. If he's neutropenic, that might earn us a stay
at Lucy's Hyatt (Lucille Packard Children's Hospital). I'm pretty sure
his ANC will be fine, so we'll end up going home. We'll see.
- Greg
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Fri, 28 Jan 2005
Happy Birthday Andrew!!!!
Today is Andrew's 2nd birthday. We're not at home, we're off having
fun, so I'm not actually typing this on his birthday. Instead, we're
up at Nana & Papa's house, and we're going to play in the snow in the
Sierras today.
For the last couple weeks, we kept asking Andrew what he wanted for
his birthday. He always answered "cake". Nana is baking a cake, so
he gets to chow down on that.
The boys have mostly recovered from their cough/cold/fever ailment.
Poor grandma couldn't withstand the germs, so she's at home having a
tough time of it. She's asthmatic, so it causes her a lot of trouble
when she catches something. I guess she's been coughing something
fierce, and her doctors have her on steroids (oh joy!) and some strong
cough medicine. We're really hoping she gets well soon.
This birthday is far happier than last year. Andrew turned 1 only 6
days following Nate's diagnosis. Andrew stayed at home with Nana,
Papa, Grandma and Grandpa Bob. Christa and I spent all day at the
hospital with Nate for chemo. We got home, I carried Nate to bed, and
it was early enough for us to have cake with Andrew. Luckily he won't
remember that first birthday. We always will.
- Greg
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Wed, 19 Jan 2005
A Sigh of Relief
Can you hear our big sigh of relief? Yesterday Nate had a spinal
recheck after his oncologist saw a "suspicious cell" on a slide of his
spinal fluid from last month. Leukemia will relapse, either in the
bone marrow, or in the CSF (cranial spinal fluid). We've been on
edge for the last month, so this is a huge relief.
Of course, life can't be that easy... last night Nate started running
a fever (he had developed a cough the day before), and now today
Andrew is running a fever. I was on the phone with the on-call
oncologist last night at 3am, and since Nate's counts are good, we got
to stay home and tough it out.
We'll see if Christa, Rebecca or I catch it. Oh, and since Christa's
mom has been staying the week with us, we'll see if Grandma can withstand
the germ assault.
Tonight, we drink.
- Greg
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Wed, 12 Jan 2005
Happy New Year
Today is the first entry I've made in 2 months. I'd like to wish
everyone a happy new year, and hope your holiday season went well. We
had a great time. Rebecca is now 4 months old, Andrew is 2 weeks shy
of his second birthday, and Nate is 5, coming up on his 1 year
anniversary of fighting cancer. Wow. Amazing.
The kids are good, Rebecca had her 4 month checkup and she's right at
an average length and weight. It's different for us, since the boys
have always been big.
I'm updating our family picture here because it's way too old, it
shows Nate when he was bald (which he definately is not), and it's
missing Rebecca.
Nate's treatments continue. On the 21st of December he had a spinal
for intrathecal chemo and to check the spinal fluid for leukemia
cells. On the 23rd, his nurse called and said that the pathologist
didn't see anything, but that Dr. Marina saw a "suspicious cell" and
so he needs a re-check in a month. She said this happens all the
time, don't worry about it and have a Merry Christmas. So, needless
to say, we've been a little worried the last month. Next Tuesday
he'll have his re-check, and we'll find out what's up. Please keep
Nate in your thoughts. Last week his labs showed his blood counts
dropped, and that just added to our worry. Today's labs showed those
came back up a little, so it's probably nothing... but the worry
never, ever leaves.
Christa is amazing as usual, she has been helping as an interviewer
for the pre-school. Nate's teacher left, and they've been
interviewing candidates and selecting a new teacher. Sounds like they
had a tough decision between some good candidates.
Take care,
- Greg
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Mon, 08 Nov 2004
Mr Hyde has left the building.
We did it... we survived a week of steroid hell. The one-week steroid
"pulse" finished on Thursday, and this weekend we saw our son return.
He was able to concentrate, actually play by himself for a while,
sleep a little better, and generally feel better. He's still kind of
hyper, but maybe that's because he feels better, I don't know. Or,
maybe because the dexamethasone is still slowly metabolizing... Next
hell week is in the middle of February. Can't wait.
We spent some time this weekend reorganizing in the house. We decided
we really had to move Rebecca out of our room, and we really wanted to
keep the guest room just that. So, Andrew officially moved into
Nate's room (now it is "their" room.). They are getting used to it.
Bed time isn't as smooth as it used to be, but they'll get better at
it. We had to move a bunch of toys out of the room, shuffle the
furniture around a bit, but now there are 2 race car beds (one big,
one little) in there. Andrew is so funnny... I point to his little
bed and ask who's bed is that, and he has a big smile and says
"me!".
Rebecca is now sleeping in the "baby" room, which was formerly
Andrew's. She spent her first night there last night, and did fine.
She didn't wake up until about 4 or 5 this morning, so that was great.
Hopefully she'll settle in there nicely.
Christa is doing an amazing job juggling these kids... last week was
all messed up because of Nate's demanding steroid personality, but she
manages very well. She found someone to come help out with the boys
some. His name is Tony, and he's a junior college student that works
as a camp counselor for kids with disabilities or something like that.
she's going to have him come help with the boys a few times a week so
that she can manage more stuff.
I still need to put some photos up here, but that'll have to be a
different time.
Take care,
- Greg
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Fri, 22 Oct 2004
I can't believe it's been almost a month
I can't believe it's been almost a month since my last message here.
Lots of activity during that time. First of all, Rebecca is now 7
weeks old, and doing well. She's gaining weight and getting bigger.
Her 2 month checkup will be coming up at the beginning of November.
Andrew is doing well, running around busy trying to do everything that
his big brother does. I think he's 21 months old now, and he has a
ton of words. He get's his ideas across well. Yesterday he was busy
telling me to "come on ... play". He wanted me to follow him into the
other room to play with toys.
Nate is doing pretty well. On October 8th, he turned 5 years old.
I'm so thankful for that. I keep suppressing the thought that he
would not have seen his 5th birthday without his treatment. On Nate's
birthday I took the day off work and we headed over to Half Moon Bay
for our annual pumpkin trip. The weather was beautiful as usual, and
I'll post the pictures sometime soon.
Nate did come down with a fever on Sunday, the 17th, about 2:30 in the
morning. That required a trip up to the Stanford ER to get blood
counts and blood cultures. Luckily his immune system was responding
well enough that we were able to go home and avoid being admitted for
a hospital stay. His fever came back down, and was gone the next day,
so it was probably a virus. But, as usual, it was no fun.
Take care,
- Greg
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Mon, 27 Sep 2004
Sleep Deprivation
Rebecca sure likes to be awake a lot. Several feedings a night, and
then she doesn't go back to sleep very well. Either we have to hold
her for 45 minutes, which turns a feeding into a couple hour process,
or she lays in bed with us. Neither option is great, so we're using
them both. Christa is amazing, she's holding up very very
well.
The boys really like Rebecca. Andrew is always asking for "baby,
baby". And Nate is calling her "sister", as in "where's sister?".
They're all very cute together. We have to be careful with Andrew
around the baby, since he'll try and touch her face sometimes. This
morning he was hilarious. He'd move his face close to her hand until
her hand bumped his nose, and then he'd say "pop", pull back his head
and start laughing.
We're having fun, even with all the work. Nate is back in pre-school,
so that get's him out of the house a little bit (3 afternoons per
week). Andrew is talking like mad, not very big sentences, but enough
to get his ideas across. Rebecca is cute as a button, and is an angel
as long as she is held. Actually, she does pretty well otherwise,
also. We're just can't wait for a couple of long blocks of sleep at
night. That'll make life a lot easier for mom & dad.
Nate's treatment is going exactly according to plan. That is good.
Surprises are no good. In maintenance, his 6-mp was increased by 50%
in dosage, and he seems to be tolerating it fine. His counts have
been right in the target range. His oncologist wants his ANC between
750 and 1500, and that's where he's at (last week was 1250 or so). If
his ANC is too high for enough weeks, they'll increase his chemo
dosage. If it's too low for enough weeks, then they'll decrease
dosage. Also, on a week-by-week basis, if his counts show he's
neutropenic (ANC < 500) then we'll hold daily 6-mp dose until his
immune system regains strength. So far we haven't had this trouble.
Both boys are in swim lessons and they're really enjoying that.
Saturday I took them both down there. Nate got into the pool in his
class, and then Andrew and I got in for Andrew's class. It's fun
being in there with Andrew, and Nate is in a different corner of the
pool so I can watch him and wave. This is a great part about having
Nate's central line out... he can do the swimming. If he get's
neutropenic, however, I'll keep him out of the public pool. It's not
smart exposing him to too many germs then.
Christa is doing a fabulous job with the baby. I'm trying to help
around the house the best I can, and relieve Christa from her duty to
the baby as much as possible, also. Rebecca will be 4 weeks old
tomorrow, so hopefully by the end of her second month she'll be
sleeping a lot better. Both of the boys had been sleeping through the
night by the end of the second month. We'll see.
Take care,
- Greg
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Mon, 13 Sep 2004
Rebecca is almost 2 weeks old, and Nate started Continuation
Rebecca is almost 2 weeks old. I'm done having fun with the family,
and heading back to work today. Poor Christa, talk about having your
hands full. 3 kids under the age of 5. Wow. We're getting lots of
help, since she needs 6 - 8 weeks of recovery from the c-section to
heal fully. That means she can't lift Andrew, our 19 month old moose
of a son. Many, many, many thanks to Christa's mom Madie, and Bob, and
my parents Doug and Judy. They're doing tours of duty for the next
few weeks to help us out.
A week and a half ago, Nate officially started the Continuation phase
of his treatment protocol, often called the "long term maintenance"
phase. This phase will run for 96 weeks. Yeah, almost 2 years. What
is different about this phase? Well, he'll get lumbar punctures
(spinal taps) where methotrexate chemo is injected into his spine only
every 12 weeks now, rather than every 3 weeks. He'll get IV
vincristine once a week for 2 weeks on a repeating 16 week cycle.
During the vincristine week, he'll be on steroid. Every single week
he'll get a blood draw to check his blood counts (CBC with
differential & platelet count weekly, and once a month tests for liver
& kidney function). Once a week he takes oral methotrexate (six
little pills). And, every single night he takes oral 6-mp pills
(mercaptopurine). Sounds like a walk in the park, right?
Take care,
- Greg
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Tue, 31 Aug 2004
Welcome Baby Rebecca
This morning at 7:55am baby Rebecca Doane was born. She was a
whopping 7lbs 8oz, and 19.5 inches long. She's beautiful, with just a
little bit of light, thin hair. She was delivered by c-section at El
Camino Hospital in Mountain View, California.
Christa came through the surgery just fine. She's such a trooper.
Afterwards she was feeling good, but a little nausea set in
later.
Christa's mom Madie, and my mom Judy were down to see the baby brought
into the nursery. Our boys will be down to visit us in a little
while, so we'll see what they think of their new baby sister.
I put some pictures up at this link.
We expect mom & baby to come home on Saturday.
Take care,
- Greg
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Sun, 22 Aug 2004
The tubes are gone!
Friday Nate had surgery and had his central line removed. That's a
good thing. Unfortunately, that doesn't mean we're done with chemo.
31 weeks of treatment are done, 99 more weeks to go.
He was doing a little too much today, whacking the treat with a stick
jumping around, acting just like a 4 year old boy. His wound bled a
little, but nothing significant. Supposedly he can get wet at 48
hours post surgery, so I think I'll give him a shower tomorrow
evening. He might end up truly clean for the first time in six
months. Forget those sponge baths. Let's get back to the real
thing.
We signed both boys up for swim lessons, starting in a few weeks.
I've been taking Andrew this summer on Saturday mornings for a swim
lesson. Nate tagged along to one, but ended up having a hard time.
He really wanted to be able to swim, too. Pretty soon, and he can
swim again. No more risk of infection from the central line.
Andrew seems to be fighting a little cold right now. Kind of sniffly
and sounded a bit congested tonight. Hopefully he'll get over it
quickly. And hopefully Nate won't get it.
Christa is tired of being pregnant. Soon, very soon, she'll be done.
Another week and a half, and we'll have the new baby.
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Sat, 14 Aug 2004
Long day yesterday but good results.
Nate had an LP, a BMA and a 4 hr. IV methotrexate infusion yesterday. A
long day at the hospital, for sure. The LP & BMA were clear. I'm
always a little nervous about those. So, Nate's Dr informed him that
his tubes have to come out. He pretty well freaked out about that, lots
of screaming and crying. He's been telling us that he's not going to
have them out until he's all done with leukemia, when he's almost 7. I
can't wait to get those out, but of course we'll have some conditioning
to go through to get used to getting stuck with a needle. A normal
bath, going swimming, being able to get dressed without those stupid
tubes sure sounds nice to me. Surgery is scheduled for a week from
today (8/20) to yank 'em out.
Nate will enter long term maintenance in a couple weeks, starting oral
methotrexate pills, and increasing his 6MP dosage. His LPs will be
every 12 weeks, and he'll have a steroid pulse with vincristine every 16
weeks. Kind of exciting.
He did have one thing in labs yesterday that was different. His ALT was
more than 10 times normal. According to our protocol document, no
change to the administration of MTX would occur for the next cycle, but
if it continues to stay elevated we might hold MTX. We'll see where
that goes to.
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Mon, 09 Aug 2004
Good Weekend Camping
We had a good weekend camping. Nate and I both survived it. He got
to fish, climb rocks, pee in the woods, sleep in a tent, and go 4
wheeling. And lots of burping without saying "excuse me". A regular
"guys" camping trip.
I'll post more details later, and try and get the pictures up. For now,
check out this picture of Nate sitting on a rock in the water.
- Greg
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Wed, 28 Jul 2004
Mixing the potion...
And, so it begins again. A week of steroid. Nate just had his first dose this afternoon,
and we'll have to see when it really kicks in. I expect Mr. Hyde soon...
Today Nate also had a IV push of vincristine, and will get another next Wednesday.
His bloodwork today shows he's just barely above the neutropenic level. His numbers from
today's blood test:
WBC 1.6 (Normal range 5.5 - 15.5 K/uL)
RBC 3.24 (Normal range 3.90 - 5.30 MIL/uL)
HGB 10.1 (Normal range 11.5 - 13.5 g/dL)
Platelets 289 (Normal range 150-400 K/uL)
ANC 568 (calculated from NRUT % & WBC)
Last week Nate had IV methotrexate, and hauled around the portable IV pump for a couple of days.
He got through it without the sickness he had the time before (3 weeks prior). He was quite the
happy camper to be unhooked from the pump, and able to run wild.
Over the weekend I spent some time trimming a tree, and also working on the swingset project
that I've been neglecting. The metal parts are all painted, we picked up some new bolts, and now
I just have to asseble and mount it to the side of the climbing structure. I'll have to put up
pics when I finish.
August 6th I'm taking Nate camping (at least I hope so). The annual camping trip I take with some
buddies is that weekend, and Nate is gonna tag along. It should be fun. I just hope his ANC recovers
a bit, because that is his defense against infection. My friends are prepared that if I have to leave,
I'm leaving all my gear where it is. That would be the plan if Nate starts running a fever. Nate
will have a grand time, though, throwing rocks in the lake, hiking around the woods, and burning stuff
in the campfire. When I took him camping (just the 2 of us) last summer, he had a great time stabbing
leaves with a stick and then burning them in the fire.
Now, if I can just find someone to take Andrew for the weekend... Christa would have some much deserved
quiet time at home...
Take care,
- Greg
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Thu, 22 Jul 2004
10 Beautiful Years of Marriage
Married since July 22, 1994.
Ten years ago today my bride said " I do " . Christa and I
have led a particularly charmed life. We have been together so long
that we work so well together, and yet we have our own ideas and
identities. Together we are strong.
We have worked hard in our professional lives, lived well with trips
and fun. Now, we're in the family stage, raising our children.
Together we're leading our son in his fight with cancer. I cannot
imagine how I could succeed without her.
Christa is the most considerate, loving person I know. She and I were
absolutely destined for each other. She shows her unselfish character
in her daily accomplishments raising our children. Our fifteen years
together is a testament to our commitment. I will be as devoted in
another 50 years as I am today.
This year I can't give her those things many would expect on a 10 year
wedding anniversary. She's 7 1/2 months pregnant, so taking a big
trip to Hawaii is out. Our son is in the middle of his chemotherapy,
and so we will spend our time at home. Fancy jewelry just doesn't say
what needs to be said.
What I can offer is this: "I do." And, I love you.
For the whole world to see.
- Greg
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Six Month Anniversary of Diagnosis & A Great Big Thank You
Six months ago today, on January 22nd, 2004, Nate was diagnosed with
cancer. What a road it has been.
Doctors, spinal taps, surgeries, cancer drugs, anti-emetics, hospital
stays, pills, midnight snacks, hair loss, IV pumps, heparin flushes,
dressing changes, fevers, and fear. But here we are.
What else has there been. Family, friends, Legoland, Camp Okizu,
toys, water fights, jumping on the bed, gymnastics, archery,
pre-school, TV, fireworks, beach trips, little brothers learning to
walk, auntie Amy, fire truck rides, fuzzy heads, fun and lots and lots
of love. And so we continue on.
26 weeks of treatment are done, 104 weeks of treatment are left. It
sounds so far away, but we will settle into the routine. As long as
nothing unexpected happens, we can lead a normal life. Our
"new" normal.
I would like to thank all of the wonderful family and friends who have
helped us out so much. From the countless hours that family has spent
watching Andrew, to the chores and shopping and whatever else we've
needed, we are forever indebted. To all of our friends that brought
so many meals, we can't thank you enough. We love the phone calls,
the emails, and the visits. They provide much needed distraction from
the circus we call our home. To all of my coworkers who have covered
for me, I'm very grateful. To the friends and family who sent so many
gifts for Nate, and often Andrew, thank you very much. To those on
the ALL-KIDS mailing list, your knowledge has helped us walk through
this madness.
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Tue, 20 Jul 2004
Site Redesign
I'm busy re-designing our website. It'll look much nicer when I'm done.
There will be no more frames involved in site. And, it'll be much easier
to generate new journal entries so that Christa and I can both help
keep everyone informed.
Please pardon the broken links for a little while.
- Greg
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Tue, 13 Jul 2004
Update on Nate
Well since our last update, May 29th (website), things have slowly
calmed down. The first two weeks of June were still intensive chemo
weeks for Nate but he faired pretty well. His immunity and hemoglobin
did drop as is common for those drugs. He recieved a transfusion on
June 18th, which perked him up again. He was considered nutropenic
(low immunity) for one week but the following week his numbers went
back up and his hemoglobin has also gone back up, so he has not needed
any more transfusions. This was all good news since we had heard that
many kids take several weeks to recover from those chemo drugs.
My dad came for a visit the third week of June and we had a nice
visit. My Dad got to rest and relax and spend time with the boys. We
went to San Francisco and saw the sights in a Big Red Fire Truck. It
was cool to go across the Golden Gate in an open air fire truck. Here
is some info on the tour:
http://www.fireenginetours.com.
Nate has been challeging us quite a bit lately in the bad behavior
area but that seems to be leveling off. We just think he's feeling
well enough to give us a hard time, so I guess that's a good sign. We
go thru a "one step forward, two steps back" process with him since he
gets away with murder while on tough medicines. Then we have to reel
him back in after he's done taking that medicine. Its hard to
evaluate whether his behavior is "normal" 4 year old behavior or
issues related to his treatment.
Right before Forth of July Weekend he recieved another one of his 4
hour IV infusions of a chemo drug, which before has not caused him too
much discomfort but this time he spent most of the evening throwing
up, that was tough for the little guy. But by Saturday he was ready
to go to Greg's folks for the holiday weekend. We had a great weekend
and the kids spent a lot of time playing with their cousins. Nate's
still has water resctrictions because of his port in his chest so he
couldn't go swimming in the lake. The kids had a big squirt gun
fight, which Nate could do. We also went to the river one day. Nate
went in the water up to his waist and then spent time floating in a
blown up boat, while we pushed him around the water. Andrew enjoyed
his new baby cousin, Brian, and showered him with kisses and hugs.
Andrew is very loving and gentle with other kids, so I hope that will
carry on to our new baby. Andrew kept on the move all weekend,
walking everywhere. He enjoyed the fireworks and was not scared at
all.
We continue thru the rest of the summer with Nate taking an evening
chemo pill and then every three weeks he gets the 4 hour IV infusion.
Overall he is feeling well and biggest side effect of those medicines
is a lack of appetite. His hair even seems to be coming back now. He
and Andrew are enjoying taking a gymnastics class. And Andrew has
started swim lessons with Greg. Nate will get another week of steriod
in July and then this phase will end Agust 11th, with another Bone
Marrow and Spinal Tap. Then we'll move to the phase 3.
My cousin, Amy, is still here helping us out which is a big help with
Andrew who weighed in at 33 lbs at his last doctor's visit.
Unfortunately, she has to go back home right before the baby is born,
a big bummer for all of us but her college semester starts
Aug. 23rd.
My ceserean is scheduled for August 31st at 7:30am. So then we will
start a different phase of our lives. As August 31st approaches, I
still find myself overcome with the emotions of those first few weeks
after Nate's diagnosis and when I think of how the medicines have
changed him physically and emotionally.
Check out this
photo album to see pictures related to Nate's treatment and how he has
changed over the last couple months. When I look at these it makes me
sad to see how the treatments have made him change but as you can see
from the last picture the kids seem to move past the feeling bad and
move on to the "Let's play rough Daddy" In between treatments we get
back on track with our lives and "Life is Good".
We haven't updated the website very much, Greg's working on an easier
process for that and he has been very busy working and being a great
Dad.
Check out the following link to see new pictures of the boys.
The Boys
Thank you for all the support and good wishes,
- Christa
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Sat, 29 May 2004
Well, we're home.
This week Nate finished the 3 weeks of steroid (and vincristine, and
daunorubicin) that are the first half of his delayed intensification
(DI) stage of chemo. Wednesday morning was the last dose of dex, and
boy were we happy for that! We wanted our son back. I've been
calling him Senior Loco, since the steroid side-effects change his
personality. He ballooned up the last week on steroid... on Wednesday
in clinic he weighed in at 59.7 lbs... just huge. And, he was at the
point where he could barely walk, couldn't get up or down to the floor
anymore, couldn't climb a single step on his own. Kind of like at the
end of Induction. I guess that's why this stage is called
Intensification
His labs on Wednesday looked ok (CBC primarily), so we went home
without even seeing his NP or doctor. Thursday he was continuing to
swell, even though we had stopped the steroid the day before. And, he
started complaining about it hurting when he urinated. His scrotum
had swelled up, and looked like a water balloon. So, Christa took him
in to see the doctor. Dr. Marina checked him out, and she decided she
didn't want to just give him lasix (a diuretic) and send him home.
So, she admitted Nate to the hospital. This was about 5:30 pm on
Thursday. I went by the house on the way there to pick up clothes and
toys, etc.
The blood test results on Thursday showed his BUN was high, some
other liver functions tested high, his albumin was low, and his
triglycerides were sky high (> 3000, normal is < 150). I guess his
fluid issue, and other stuff was a bit interesting, because several
of the senior oncologists all checked on him. He had a chest and
abdominal x-ray Thursday night, but we'd have to wait until morning
for an ultrasound. But, there wasn't a plan on what to do, other
than to keep monitoring him. So, Nate and I settled in for the
night.
A fasting blood test at 8am on Friday morning showed that his BUN had
dropped a bit, his triglycerides were down to 500 (still several times
normal), his cholesterol was high (expected based upon the
triglycerides level). His albumin was still low. An ultrasound was
performed in the morning, and there was no obvious pooling of fluid in
his body, just swollen tissue apparently holding onto too much
water.
Dr. Marina came by and she talked about what the plan was: give him an
infusion of albumin, and follow that with lasix. The albumin should
draw water from the tissue into the blood, and the lasix would cause
the kidneys to remove the fluid from the blood with increased urine
production.
So, a lot of time was spent hanging out, waiting for the albumin to be
prepared for the infusion, starting the infusion, and then giving him
the lasix injection. I snuck out for a while, went home and got
cleaned up, then headed back to the hospital.
This seemed to help, and he started to loose the fluid. But, it takes
a while, so we spent another night in the hospital. At 5am a nurse
weighed him (Why did they do it at 5am? Because they can.), and he
had dropped 4 kilos (8.8 lbs) from Thursday evening. You could see in
his face and his belly measurements (they measured his girth several
times).
Dr. Marina had indicated on Friday evening that he should be able to
go home on Saturday morning... well, morning is a relative term.
Saturday morning when she came by on rounds, she decided that we
should do another albumin/lasix round. And, since his blood pressure
rose a bit during the albumin infusion, they decided to watch him for
2 hours after the drugs were administered. So, after loosing even
more water, he finally got to head home after 6pm Saturday.
Of course, life can't be this easy... Nate decided he couldn't sleep
so he was up until 10:30pm, Andrew woke up about 9pm from his sleep
crying hard, then managed to puke all over Christa. Why would life be
simple? That would be too easy.
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Fri, 23 Apr 2004
Three Months of Treatment
Week 14 of 130 [ Consolidation Phase ]
Today is 3 months exactly since Nate's first dose of chemo, on
January 23. I haven't written for a while. Life is good. Nate has
been doing well. I've updated his treatment calendar to cover weeks 1 through 32 of
treatment (today is part of week 14). I'll have to get around to
the next 98 weeks following that.
We've had some excitement over the last month, since my last update.
The fun part was a whirlwind trip to LegoLand in Carlsbad, CA. It's
between LA and San Diego (closer to San Diego), so it turned out to
be about 450 miles each way. We did it as a quick trip, leaving
about 5am on Thursday, April 8th. We got to the park at 1pm, and
spent the rest of the afternoon there until they closed at 6pm. We
spent most of Friday at the park. And then, on Saturday, we headed
home. It was a tun of driving. But, we had a lot of fun. Most
importantly, Nate had a lot of fun. Check out the pictures.
Auntie Vicki came along and was a tremendous help with the boys.
Nate shared a room with her at the hotel. The first night he slept
with her in the same bed. The next night, he told her to sleep in
the other bed because she "cuddles too much ". He cracks
us up.
Christa, in all her copious spare time, managed to organize a blood
drive at Nate's pre-school. It takes a lot of 4 year olds to get a
pint of blood though. Just kidding... quite a few parents, family
and friends donated blood. I think it was like 25 people. She did
it through the Stanford blood bank. This was not a directed donor
program, donating just for Nate. This was just normal donation.
Nate has only required 2 units of red blood, and one unit of
platelets during his treatment. We'll what those numbers are when
he's done with treatment in 2006.
A few weeks ago we had a bit of a scare. Nate started running a
fever on Saturday, March 27th. Not real high, but we had two
readings over 100.3 an hour apart. That's enough to trigger an ER
visit. Of course it was 9pm at night, so Christa's mom came over
while Andrew slept, and Christa, Nate and I headed up to the
Stanford ER (and who says I don't take Christa out on Saturday
nights anymore?). The triage nurse took one look at Nate's bald
head, and steered us straight into her cubicle. She took his temp
(which had dropped slightly from home), and called and immediately
got a room for us in the ER. They don't want the cancer kids near
anyone who might be sick. And, I'm thankful for it.
So, they took blood samples from both of Nate's tubes, and we hung
out while the blood cultures and the CBC tests were completed. The
cultures came back negative for infection, and his CBC showed that
his immune system was in pretty good shape. His hemoglobin was a
little low, but not low enough to trigger a need for a transfusion
right away. By this time, his fever had gone away, and since his
ANC was good (measure of his immune system), they sent us home on
fever watch. On Sunday, he had two readings of 99.4, but the
remainder were all normal.
Nate's fever was not the scare that I mentioned... read on.
Monday, though, Andrew started running a fever. So, we figured at
this point there was a virus that the boys both got. Andrew was
pretty cranky. So, tylenol it was, and he ended up taking extra
naps. Tuesday was about the same (Nate was doing well), but in the
evening when changing Andrew for bed, we noticed a couple of red
bumps on him. That started setting off alarms for us. In January,
at Andrew's 1 year checkup, we skipped his MMR and Varicella (chiken
pox) vaccinations. Both of those are live virus vaccines, and since
Nate had a compromised immune system, we were advised to skip them.
First thing Wednesday morning, Christa hauled AJ down to the
pediatrician's office. She saw him right away, and when looking at
him, said it didn't look like chicken pox at all. In fact, it
didn't look like a virus, maybe more like an allergy or something.
There were only a couple of the spots, and they didn't feel rough or
anything. So, relieved, Christa brought him home. But, he was
still cranky and running a fever.
Our fear was chicken pox first, and measles second. Chicken pox is
one of those diseases that almost all kids get, and in general, is
fairly simple. Very few children have any severe complications from
it. The child mortality rate for normal kids age 1 - 8 is about 2
per 100,000. That's a rate of 0.002 percent. Very low. Children
who have leukemia that contract chicken pox have a mortality rate in
the range of 7 - 25%. As many as 1 in 4 will die if they catch
chicken pox.
Of course, the story isn't over yet, now is it. Wednesday afternoon
Andrew's fever broke, which was good. He started to perk right up.
So, Wednesday night, changing Andrew for bed (why didn't we just
leave him naked by this point?), we discovered his torso was covered
with a red, bumpy rash. So, now, we're not sure what this is. It
was very different from what the doctor looked at in the morning.
So, first think Thursday morning, off AJ went to the pediatrician.
She said it could either be rubella or roseola. Both are viruses.
Rubella is the German Measles, and is the 'R' in the 'MMR' vaccine.
Of course, Andrew didn't have that vaccine yet. Roseola is a common
herpes virus variant, that generally only shows up in children from
about 9 months to 2 years of age. Either case, there was nothing to
do for Andrew. However, know what it was could be important for
Nate. So, she ordered a CBC for Andrew, and he had his first real
blood draw of his life. Christa said he did great.
In the end, it ended up it wasn't rubella, so it must have been
roseolla. And, Nate never ended up with anything other than a
little bit of fever.
So, after conferring with Nate's oncology staff, we determined that
we could get AJ vaccinated for both MMR and varicella. If Andrew
caught full blow chicken pox, it would be a much greater risk to
Nate. Nate did have the varicella vaccine when he was younger, but
it's probably not very effective now. If his immune system is
really down, then it wouldn't make a bit of difference if he's been
vaccinated. If I remember right, then, Friday April 16th, AJ was
vaccinated for MMR & varicella. And, knock on wood, no issues with
Nate.
The last bit of news is that we had an ultrasound of the new baby,
and we found out that we're going to have a girl. So, Nate and
Andrew will be having a baby sister. I'm sure it's gonna get crazy
around our house...
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Thu, 25 Mar 2004
Week 6, Consolidation
It's been a while since I put up an update. Mostly, because
things have been going pretty smooth. Nate wrapped up the
steroid last week, taking his last dose on the night of the
16th. What a relief. It's hard taking care of Nate that
way. One of those last days on steroid, Christa was taking care
of Nate while I was at work. Apparently he threw a major fit,
trying to hit and kick her, just hopping mad. She managed to
distract him, get him focused on something else. He snapped out
of the funk, and a couple minutes later he asked her: "Mommy, why was
I mad at you?" What can you say. It's not him, it's the
drugs. Really. It took a couple days for the steroid to
clear. Even Friday, on the 3rd day off, Christa had to bring him
home from preschool because he was pitching a fit. Part of the
problem was that she was there, and parents bring out the worst
behavior in their kids.
Over the weekend, Nate was doing quite well. We even did some
playing hockey on the back patio. Andrew even got in on the
action, chasing us around in his walker. It was hilarious.
One of these days they're gonna leave me in their dust.
On Tuesday, Auntie Reggie came down with her girls, and Christa and
Nate and Andrew headed met them at the Rosicrucian Egyptian Museum
in San Jose. Seemed they had a pretty good time
there. But, when they got back to the house, Nate played hard
with the girls, all day long. He really hasn't had that sort of
day, getting crazy with the cousins, since before his
diagnosis. I didn't get home until 6:30, so I missed most of
it. But, they were still playing then, so i got a
glimpse. Hard to believe, watching him play, that he has a
deadly disease.
Over the last week or more, we've been spending some time up at LPCH visiting another family that's
there. Little Spencer is another boy with ALL, all of 3 1/2
years old. But Spencer has T-cell, which is worse than Nate's
B-cell. And, worst yet, a couple weeks ago, he relapsed in his
CNS (spinal/brain fluid, not his bone marrow). Since then, he's
getting beat up with spinal taps, getting TIT (triple intra-thecal
chemo drugs) a couple times per week. The methotrexate is
causing mouth sores, such that he hasn't talked for 3 weeks now, and
he can hardly eat. The doctors have been trying to get his
leukemia back into remission. Spencer's parents, Kerri &
Brian, have decided that he will get a cord-blood transplant at Duke
University in North Carolina.
The good news today is that his spinal yesterday showed no leukemia
cells. That is great news. However, Spencer's blood counts
are so low that he can't travel to Duke yet. So, they're in a
holding pattern waiting for his counts to come up. Hopefully
they will, real soon. Then, off they go, making the
move. And we are hoping for all the best for them. Please
visit Spencer's website,
and you'll see pictures of a very courageous little boy, and can read
about his story.
Now, onto Nate's treatment. For everyones education, I've added
a link on to a page that gives copious details about the different chemo
drugs that Nate is taking. The information was gathered by a
parent of a child with ALL. It's a great reference. This
week was IT & IV MTX week. It's been 3 weeks since Nate's
in-patient stay when he got his first IV MTX treatment. This
week would be different, however, where we would get to do this
outpatient. So, yesterday morning, bright and early, we headed
off to the hospital. We had labs drawn in the clinic, and Lynn
checked Nate over physically. We got the bicarbonate solution IV
running early so that we'd be able to start the IV methotrexate
infusion at a reasonable time. After she was done, we headed
upstairs to the PACU to wait for "surgery". For him, it's not
really surgery, just the spinal tap procedure. But, we're
putting him to sleep for this now, so we had to wait for the
anesthesiologist. Once Nate was asleep it took only a few
moments to do the LP. Lynn took a sample of his CSF to check for
leukemia, and then injected methotrexate into his spine. Then,
we headed off to the recovery room so they could monitor him. He
slept quite a while in recovery, far longer than last time. I
think he was just tired from the day before, playing with his
cousins. That's ok. We weren't going anywhere.
After recovery, we headed downstairs to the day hospital.
That's where he would be getting his IV MTX.
In the day hospital we got him to go pee, so the nurses could check
the pH level. It was good, so they were able to get the MTX
infusion started at 1:15pm. That started the clock running for
the 4 hour infusion. And, it's important for the follow up
days. Nate was a bit restless this time, didn't really settle
into any one thing. Watched some TV, played some video games,
played cards, but didn't do his usual watching of a movie for a couple
hours. He took some entertaining. At 5:15 the infusion was
done, so the nurse removed his MTX bag. A little bit later, the
home health care nurse showed up with our portable infusion pump, in a
little backpack. In the pack was a bag of bicarb solution and
the pump programmed for 24 hours of infusion. She got us hooked
up, and we headed home. Nate fell asleep on the way home, as
expected (it was around 7pm of a full day). Off to bed he
went. The night was not uneventful, however, as he did wake up
after wetting the bed. This was the first time he has since
starting treatment. We expected it a lot earlier, especially
with some long days of hydration, but he's got a bladder of
steel. So, we changed his clothes, washed him up a bit, and
changed the bed. I try to do all of this if possible, keeping
Christa in her pregnant glory, away from the chemo drugs. Of
course, I suppose I ought to be careful too. Some of the chemo
drugs cause cancer. How ironic is that?
So, today we headed to the hospital for a blood draw at the 24 hr mark
(1:15pm). We hung around for a few hours waiting for the
results. It turns out he was at a level of 1.4 ( the units
don't matter... ), where we need him to get down to 0.2. Last
time, in the hospital, he was at 0.4 at the 24hr
mark. Apparently he's not flushing it out as quickly this
time. We'll be heading back to the hospital tomorrow for another
blood draw to check MTX levels. Also, at 7am tomorrow morning
we'll be giving the first of the leucovorin rescue (follinic acid) to
stop the methotrexate toxicity. Again at 1pm we'll give the
leucovorin, and have the blood draw at 1:15pm.
The beauty of doing this whole process outpatient is that even though
he's confined by having to lug around the infusion pump and hydration
solution bag, he can pass the time at home with his own toys, games
and TV. It's hard for us because he has to urinate frequently,
and he needs help often to get around with the bag of
solution. But that's ok. Hospitals are for sick
people.
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Sun, 14 Mar 2004
Week 4, Consolidation
In all, it's been a pretty good weekend. Nate has demanded a lot
of attention, but that's to be expected. The weather here in
California has been just beautiful. Yesterday we had 3 tickets
to the SJ Sharks vs. LA Kings hockey game. Christa, Nate and I
headed off to the game. It didn't work so well. Nate's
fear of heights has worsened lately. We were in the upper
deck. I carried him up to our seats. After about 2
minutes, he had a big problem. He was crying, just wanting to go
home. Of course, he's under the influence of
steroids. But, his phobia is definately kicking in. So, we
have these cool towels from the game that say "Beat LA" or something.
After leaving before the puck even dropped, we headed over to
Johnny Rockets, the burger joint. He liked the vanilla
milkshake, for sure. When we got home, I got to watch the rest
of the sharks game on TV. Go Sharks. I told Nate I was
proud of him for trying. He later said sorry for having to leave
the Sharks game. It's amazing how unimportant the event
was.
We did lots of playing this weekend. I'm trying to make sure
that Andrew doesn't get left out. Andrew just loves his big
brother. He wants to wrestle with Nate. He'll scoot on
over close by, and grab hold of him and scream. Nate will even
get Andrew, which is a big change. Not long ago, I don't know if
Nate even knew he had a little brother. That's an exaggeration,
but he was mostly disinterested. Babys don't do much, and so
they're not much fun. I have a feeling that soon they're gonna
be trouble together.
We managed to pick up a second hand bed for Andrew this weekend.
It's a race car bed, like Nate's. But, it's the toddler
size, rather than the twin size that Nate has. It ought to do
the trick when we have to kick Andrew out of the crib for the new
baby.
Nate's eating has started. His kick this time is Subway
sandwiches. For breakfast, lunch and dinner today.
Yesterday, Christa bought him a foot long on wheat, mayo,
lettuce, tomato, turkey and cheese. Today, I ran out and bought
him another one. Cheaper than sushi, that's for sure. It
all started with a Togos sandwich on Friday, but the bread got too
hard in the fridge. The Subway sandwiches seem to keep better in
the fridge, and they're a little smaller and easier for Nate to eat.
Whatever. I'm just glad it's not Beluga caviar that he
needs. He only needed a small snack at 3am last night. Two
more days of steroids. We'll get through it.
We found this site tonight about fundraising for Leukemia research.
Check it out. It's a crack up. I'm gonna have to do
this for sure, and get a bunch of buddies to do it also! http://www.stbaldricks.org/
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Fri, 12 Mar 2004
Week 4, Consolidation
Steroid boy is back. The hunger isn't here yet, but the other
effects are. He can't focus very long. His mind is
racing. He has absolutely no patience. When he says
"Daddy, can I tell you something". If you don't respond within
about 10 milliseconds, he starts screaming at you. So, I take a
deep breath, and calmly say "yes, Nate". I know it's just the
drugs. Still doesn't make it pleasant to experience the
fits.
On Tuesday evening, when we were getting Nate ready for bed, Christa
noticed that the wound where the surgeon put in the Hickman catheter
seemed extra red. Not the site where the tube exits Nate's
chest, but the spot on the collar bone where a small incision was made
to get into the chest. After they put in the tube, a small
suture was put in there and it seemed like it was healing fine before.
But, the skin seemed to have a red area that was growing over
the prior few days. So, Christa called the on-call hemo/onc
fellow. After describing to them, the advice was to come into
the clinic in the morning and have it looked at. If it was the
site where the tube exits Nate's chest, we probably would have had to
head to the emergency room.
Wednesday morning, Christa and Nate headed to the clinic. I
headed to the local internet cafe to work, and Nana was watching AJ.
After the oncology clinic nurses looked at it, they called
someone from pediatric surgery to check it out. They took a
look at it and said that his body was just trying to get rid of the
suture. The treatment: apply a warm compress 5 times a
day and clean with peroxide. How's that for a simple
procedure. Since they were already in clinic, Lynn decided we
should move clinic day to Wednesdays instead of Thursdays, and they
did labs and the vincristine injection. And, we started the
Dirty Dex. That's a name I've seen parents use for the
dexamethasone, the nasty steroid.
That evening, Nana was making dinner for us. I joked to her,
saying "ok, now you guys enjoy dinner. Christa and I will be
back in a while.". Christa picked up on this and said to Nate
"Nate, we're going out for a while. Be good for Nana and
Papa.". He said "Ok, bye". We didn't have to be told
twice. I felt bad about leaving when Nana was so nice and
cooking dinner for us, but I think this might have been the first time
since diagnosis that Christa and I could both be away from
Nate. We took the chance and went for it. We headed to a
very close by mexican restaurant and had dinner. Not a long one,
but it was dinner for two.
Thursday Nate started exhibiting the signs of the steroid:
restlessness, screaming fits (called 'Roid Rage). How
quick the effects kick in. We'll see when the hunger starts.
Saturday we're going to the SJ Sharks hockey game. It's a
noon game, and we've got three tickets. We'll see if we can get
through it.
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Tue, 09 Mar 2004
Week 3, Consolidation
Life feels kind of normal. This morning, Christa and Nate headed
off to pre-school and grandma came over to watch Andrew. I went
to work. The weather was beautiful, and it was a good
day. When I got home, I had two crazy boys wanting to play, and
boy were they full of energy. It took a while to settle them
down then, when bed time came. I read books to Andrew, and Nate
hovered, mostly listening. Christa took Andrew off to bed, and I
read Nate a nice long book. I really miss that. We hadn't
done that for quite a while.
How did we get here? Let me fill
you in on what happened since Saturday. Sunday I met up with
Nate, Christa and Madie at lunchtime in the cafeteria at
LPCH. Nate and I hung out and played cards while Christa and
Madie went for a walk. After a bit, we headed upstairs to see
if the play room was open yet. But, it wasn't open until 2pm, so
we walked around, and around, and around the 3rd floor. He had
one of the worst rolling IV poles that we've seen, so it was a
pain. But, it was good to have him moving around that much.
Eventually, the play room opened up, and
we went in for him to play. Christa joined us, and we hung out
for a while. About 3pm we went back to Nate's room so the nurse
could do his blood draw. We needed that blood draw to come back
showing a low enought MTX level to send us home. We killed some
time by going up on the roof, where there's a nice little
garden. We brought Nate's Bionicles (toys by Lego) up there, and
we did battle for a while. Eventually, we went back down to
Nate's room and talked to the nurses to find out what the blood test
results were. He was cleared, so the nurse unhooked his
IV. It was kind of like unchaining an animal... we ended up
running around in the hallways, playing football. He was
cracking me up. We got all our junk packed up and managed to get
home just before 7pm. Nate fell asleep on the way home, as
expected. We got his medications in him and were done for the
evening. Andrew was still up, and boy was he happy to see
Christa. He had been missing her, for sure.
Monday we spent a good day. We
ended up going to the park for lunch, enjoying the beautiful weather
we have going right now. In the 70s, actually kind of hot when
in the sun. It was a nice way to celebrate coming home from the
hospital.
Looking forward, Nate starts back on the
DEX (dexamethasone, steroid) on Thursday for a week duration, along
with a shot if vincristine on Thursday, and again a week from
Thursday. On March 24th, we'll have the next LP to administer
MTX into Nate's spine, and do the IV MTX again. We're hoping
we'll be able to do that outpatient. Sounds like we'll be taking
an infusion pump home with us, though, to keep Nate's bicarbonate
solution flowing. Sounds like a pain, but must be better than
hanging out in the hospital.
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Sat, 06 Mar 2004
Week 3, Consolidation
It's been a while since I've updated the website. So, let's talk
about Nate. Since we finished Induction 2 weeks ago, Nate has
been steadily improving. He has lost a good amount of the weight
that built up from the steroid. His face is still quite round,
and he pretty well doesn't have any hair. He's got some blonde
peach fuzz, that must have been underneath his normal
hair. Christa said it reminds her of when he was a
baby. His energy level is much better than it was. He's
keeping us busy, wanting to play a lot. This week, he even
wanted to do some wrestling, or as we call it "playing rough".
It's been a while since we've done that. His legs are
regaining their strength. He picks himself up off the floor ok,
but uses his hands on his knees to help push him up straight.
Climbing steps is a slow careful process. He's even
started to be a bit afraid coming down the stairs from our upstairs
family room. I think the lack of leg strength makes him feel
like he might fall.
Christa took Nate to school a couple times over the last
week. He can't keep up with the physical play, but he still
seemed to have a good time. It was good for him to get out of
the house, and do some stuff. It's amazing how much better he
has been feeling since we stopped the steroid. Unfortunately,
we'll be starting it up again for 7 days next week. Oh joy.
Right now is a Saturday evening that's much too quiet. Andrew is
sleeping, and I'm sitting in bed typing this update. Christa and
Nate are in the hospital, staying at Lucy's Hyatt. That's the
humorous name for Lucille Packard Children's Hospital. This is
Nate's first ever time staying in the hospital since he was born.
If the stars and planets align just right, this would be his
last. He's there for his first dose of IV methotrexate (MTX).
Yesterday he went in for MTX into his spine, and also the IV
MTX. He's going to have this done every 3 weeks for a few
months. We chose to do something different this time with the
LP. This time, an anesthesiologist put Nate to sleep for the
lumbar puncture. Last time, he was only sedated, and it was not
pleasant at all. This time, he was put to sleep so that Pam
could do the LP, and then he woke up quickly thereafter. Real
quick, actually. Then, back in recovery, he was really
good. He was chatting away, and in great spirits. He
didn't seem to be ill from the anesthesia and recovered quite
well. The only trouble was that the procedure started a little
late, and afterward we had to hang out in recovery forever, waiting
for a bed to be ready in the oncology ward.
Once Nate was moved to the Onc ward, he was sharing a room with
another child, a young woman of 17. Apparently she has relapsed
recently with her ALL. She's proceeding to a bone marrow
transplant. However, I didn't actually meet her. She was
out of the room when Nate went in there, and I didn't stick around
very long. I managed catch a cold on Thursday, and I couldn't
put the kids at risk. The ward has plenty of neutropenic
children (extremely low immune systems) who can't be exposed to
germs. Our original plans were for me to stay over in the
hospital with Nate, and Christa would stay at home with
Andrew. But, we had to change that up. Nate did amazingly
well with the change in plans. Sometimes he's a little too rigid
in his thinking, but he did great.
Last night, after running a bicarbonate hydration into Nate, and when
his urine tested for the proper pH, the nursed hooked up his IV MTX.
Christa said the nurse put on a special coat to prevent
splashing on herself when hooking it up. There's something so
unnatural about hooking a bag to your child's IV, where the bag is
clearly labeled as a bio-hazard. But that's what has to
happen. It's sadly ironic, that after these years of trying to
make sure he eats good foods, and keeping him clean and safe, we
intentionally poison him. Luckily he's not on high dose
MTX. The most common side effect fromt he MTX is mouth
sores. I'm not sure when those might show up, if at
all. I've heard from several parents on the ALL-KIDS email list
that their children got through the methotrexate without any real side
effects. I hope we're as lucky.
Nana went down to visit and hang out this morning, and I met the three
of them in the cafeteria for lunch. I had dropped AJ off at
Madie's house, and just went to the hospital cafeteria. They
came down, dragging Nate's IV cart with them. Nana, Nate and I
hung out and had lunch, while Christa went out for a walk. She
hadn't been out of the hospital for a while, and you end up feeling
disconnected from the world. The weather was beautiful and
sunny, so she went out. We finished lunch, and Nate decided he
wanted to go back to his room and watch a movie, after complaining
that his belly hurt. Probably because he really hadn't eaten
much last night or this morning. But when I talked to Christa
tonight, she said he didn't eat any dinner. Oh well. I
guess half a sandwich is better than nothing for a day's eating.
Nate should be able to come home tomorrow, after blood tests show that
the MTX level has dropped to a sufficently low level. If his
body hasn't eliminated it sufficiently, then they'll give him another
drug that is effectively the antidote for the MTX. It seems
likely that it'll be late Sunday night when he's released. We
told them that even if it's late, we'd like to take him
home. Driving 25 minutes in the car to get home should get him
back to sleep so I can just carry him to bed. It would be much
nicer for my little buddy to wake up in his own bed.
The next time we do this treatment is Mar. 24th. We'll be
putting Nate to sleep again for the LP, and then he'll hang out for
the MTX IV. But, my understanding is that we'll get to go home,
probably with an infusion pump to keep IV fluids running. I bet
we'll have to come back each of the next two days, to check MTX
levels, but that we won't have to stay in the hospital.
Christa is amazing. She keeps everything going. Tonight on
the phone she told me about a 1 year old that's in the ward. I
guess the parents can't be there much for some reasons. So,
volunteers or staff hold it as much as they can. I think hearing
the baby cry was getting to Christa, so she asked if she could hold
the baby. There's no off switch to that maternal
instinct. So many kids in there are much worse off than Nate,
and I'm sure we'll feel their pain as we live through this
process.
Good night.
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Sat, 21 Feb 2004
Day 2, Consolidation
Nate ate the great American breakfast of an eggo waffle, bacon, and
California rolls. Nana and Papa took AJ over to my sister's
house for her daughter's birthday. Kind of strange walking
through the house this afternoon without the little guy under
foot.
For dinner, we had to go get more sushi for him. He likes the
gyoza too (basically, Japanese potstickers). We also went by
Blockbuster so Nate could pick out some movies to watch. He
watched his Scooby Doo movie we rented upstairs, while I hung out next
to him typing this update. He's so sweet. Every so often
he'll say "Daddy, can I tell you something?" and then he'll say
"Daddy, I love you." What a trooper.
Tonight Christa is supposed to hook up with her group of friends, the
LSI girls. They all used to work together, and they've all
stayed very good friends. I figure it'll do her good to get out.
I'll stay home with the boys. Not sure when AJ will get
home with Nana and Papa, but no sweat.
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Fri, 20 Feb 2004
Day 1, Consolidation
Today's a pretty good day. Nate's feeling pretty
good. Christa checked his dressing on the Hickman line, and it
was really starting to come up. We needed to do his dressing
change today anyways, so we did it in the morning while the baby was
sleeping. Nate started out complaining loudly and worrying about
whether it would hurt, but Christa got started and it came off
easily. That was good. After she changed the dressing, I
did his cap change and line flush. That part was done for the
day.
Nate decided he wanted to go to Taco Bell for lunch. This is the
first time that he's wanted to go somewhere since our day at the park
feeding the ducks. I'll take this as a good sign that he's
feeling well. So, our big family outing was heading down to our
local Taco Bell, all four of us. Kind of cool. Nate can't
climb into our out of the van. He actually can't even go up
steps without a hand helping him up. I'm sure it'll get better
as his weight drops, and the steroid fades.
We're done with the steroid today, yeah! We started the 6-mp
tonight. Hard thing is that it's supposed to be on an empty
stomach. Steroid boy doesn't stop eating, though. So, I
put him to bed at 8pm, woke him up at 10pm just long enough to give
him his pill, then he went right back to sleep. Luckily, he
slept well. Sometime in the middle of the night he needed to
use the restroom, so Christa helped him. I fed the baby a bottle
about 4am, and he went back to sleep nicely. So, in all, it was
a good night. No middle of the night food
preparation. We'll see how subsequent days go.
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Thu, 19 Feb 2004
Day 28, Induction
Good News! Nate's leukemia is in remission! It's official,
we move on to the next stage of chemo, Consolidation.
Today was not just any clinic day. Today was the last day of
induction. We headed off to the hospital bright and early so
that Nate could have a BMA & LP. Those suck. In a very
big way. When we got there the did a blood draw for labs and
took Nate's vitals. His numbers came back great. His Hgb
was pretty good, but his platelets were up a lot, into the normal
range. His ANC, which was in the 400's last week, was something
like 2500 today. His nurse indicated that his numbers might be
artificially elevated by the steroid, but they're obviously far better
than before.
Now, his vitals were kind of fun. Nate is weighing in now at 56
lbs. I think he was about 42 lbs before we started this process.
Crazy. He gained 1/3 additional body weight in 1 month.
And, my back is starting to feel it. I've had to carry him
a lot lately. I'm sure the extra weight is hard for his legs,
and his energy level is so low. The real fun is when he wants to
watch tv upstairs and I've got to carry him up the pretty steep
staircase. Doesn't really matter... he could weigh 3 times as
much and I'd still find a way.
It was tough to get all the way through to the procedures. Nate
had to be pre-op, meaning no food. The human garbage disposal
had to abstain from eating. It wasn't voluntary, that's for
sure. Christa and I had to withstand the fury until we could
get started for the procedure. Then, we traded off the food
issue for the issue of getting poked. Nate was stressing over
that. The nurses got him hooked up and gave him some of the
sedative. As before, though, Nate fought it off pretty
good. They actually did 3 doses of the sedative and 3 of the
painkiller this time, rather than just the 2 last time. Didn't
make a difference. He was completely alert and aware, and
stressing over being poked. We started off with the LP,
and he had to be on his side for that. Lynn, his nurse, had
some trouble finding the right spot in his back. The weight he
has added makes it much harder to feel the vertebrae. Also,
since you have to curl him up in a ball to get separation between the
bones in the back for the needle to slip through, his much bigger
belly is making it more difficult. His knees can't get as close
to the nose as they used to. So, a couple of tries and no
luck. Whenever she would start to poke, he would straighten up
his back and close of her access. So, Christa and I swapped
spots, and I used a bit of pressure behind his shoulder blades and
head and pulled on the backs of his knees to bring them together.
This was good enough, because Lynn got it this time.
After we finished dripping the spinal fluid into a collection tube for
testing, they got the lab technician there. The technician was
to evaluate whether the marrow sample was good when Lynn took that.
So, we started the bone marrow aspiration. Position isn't
as important, but finding the right bone is. And, finding his
hip bone is difficult with the extra weight. Lynn got it on her
first try. The nurses are really good at this. Treating
these kids gives them plenty of practice.
After the procedures, Nate did some recovering in the procedure room.
He was not a happy camper, and the sedative did nothing to help
him cooperate. He needed to lay flat for a while after the
spinal, but he was insisting on sitting up on his knees. He was
screaming at us about that, but we finally got him sort of settled up
on a pillow a little bit, and watching his movie. He was getting
a little mad about that, too, though, because he said he couldn't see
it very well. I think he had blurred vision from the
drugs. He kept asking when the stuff would wear off. He
told me "I can't control my brain". Obviously he fights the
sedative so that he can stay in control of himself.
Unfortunately, it just makes it harder on him.
He started eating once we let him sit up. A bag of chips.
Some pieces of sushi. Yeah, sushi. That's what every
4 year old kid on steroids wants, right? He has eaten California
rolls nonstop for almost a week. We've had to pick them up just
about every day from a local Japanese restaurant. They've got
cooked meat in them, so they're ok for him. No raw fish in his
diet right now... But, it was hilarious watching the nurses faces as
he munched his way through some rolls. Then we took a trip
downstairs to the cafeteria to pass some time until the results of the
tests would be ready. We grabbed one of those red wagons they
have to haul the kids around in the hospital. He was still woozy
from the sedative, and couldn't walk very well. So, off we went
down to the cafeteria.
We returned to the clinic waiting room, and hung out. And
waited. And waited some more. Finally, Lynn poked her
head out, and said that Dr. Marina was really swamped, so she was
grabbing one of the other oncs to review the slides. A little
while later, she was back, and you could tell by her smile that it was
good news. She said no leukemia, and the bone marrow looked
really healthy. So, she found us a room, and there we hung
out. We were waiting for Dr. Marina, so that we could ask some
more questions. We wanted some more information regarding the
treatment protocols.
We talked with the Dr. for a while, asked some more questions,
reviewed our understanding of the treatment protocols. Stanford
had adopted COG-9905 Arm A as the treatment protocol for standard risk
leukemia if the patient was not on a study. Or, we could enroll
in the COG-9904 study, because Nate met the criteria (WBC < 50k,
age between 1-9 years, TEL/AML1 positive). We had come in
thinking we would just follow standard therapy. But some of our
understanding of the protocols was slightly flawed, and the doctor
straightened it out for us. The doctor and staff left us so we
could come to a decision. We finally decided, and told them we
wanted to enroll in the study 9904. This was different from what
we hinted at to Lynn earlier in the day. It was funny, because
she asked what made us change our minds. She wondered whether we
felt pressured by the doctor. Honestly, we absolutely didn't
feel pressured. In fact, it seemed the doctor was almost
indifferent to which treatment plan we chose. She provided
information very objectively, and let us make our decision.
So, the study coordinator was called, we signed the consent, and off
she went. A few minutes later, Nate was "randomized" into the
study, and received arm D of teh study protocol. This is the arm
that has the 4 hour methotrexate administration, and the additional
drugs for what appears to be a delayed intensification (referred to as
DI). This is the more aggressive treatment protocol in 9904.
I'll put up the treatment plan information soon.
For the next two weeks, we only have to give oral MP-6 once a day.
No more steroid. What a beautiful thing. Let's hope
the hunger drops off. Nate might get to lose a few pounds.
Two weeks from today Nate will have his first admission to the
hospital. He'll get a spinal tap to administer methotrexate into
the spinal fluid, and IV methotrexate administration. Then, 42
hours after starting the IV MTX, he'll get another drug to act as an
antidote and stop the MTX. This first IV MTX will be done with
Nate admitted, but the following treatments will be done outpatient.
Our doctor had worked at St. Judes, and apparently they did
everything outpatient that they could. So, since we're getting 4
hr MTX rather than the 24 hr MTX, we'll be able to do the subsequent
ones outpatient. I think it's good, so Nate can sleep in his own
bed. More back and forth trips to the hospital, but that's fine.
Home is where he'll be most comfortable.
Christa, my wonderful wife, had the foresight to have a trophy made up
for Nate for making it through induction. He was quite happy to
get that. We gave it to him at the hospital, and then took a
picture of Nate, Christa and Nate's NP, Lynn. He's been so
excited with the trophy since. We have had to carry it to
different rooms of the house. Also, he keeps telling me, if I
get hit by a hockey puck in the face, then if I'm really brave, he'll
give me a trophy after my stitches. This was spurred by a SJ
Sharks hockey game that he and I went to in January, where one of the
refs got hit by a puck. The kid has a memory like an
elephant.
Other than the procedures, today was a great day. A big part of
the stress that Christa and I have been under is over. Nate's
treatment decision has been made, and we're moving on down the
path.
Here's some pics:
Nate
waiting for the doctor.
Christa,
Nate and Lynn.
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Wed, 18 Feb 2004
Day 27, Induction
Food is again paramount in Nate's world right now. Oh
well. Sushi and more sushi is what he wants.
This afternoon we had an appointment with Dr. Marina to get some
questions answered regarding treatment protocols. Some of our
understanding was not correct, and she helped straighten that out.
We've definately been beating our selves up trying to come to a
decision.
Nate wanted to go with us, he even said he had some questions for Dr.
Marina. I don't think he wants to be away from us much. So
we brought Papa along to take care of Nate while we talked with the
doctor. They headed down to the cafeteria, big surprise, while
Christa and I waited for our appointment. We met with Dr. Marina
and Lynn, his PNP. We had a list of about 10 questions which we
reviewed. The more we've met with the doctor, the more I like
her. She doesn't beat around the bush, get's straight to the
point.
Our hired help (the grandparents) took off fairly early. They
wanted to give us some time to talk about Nate's treatment plan and
come to a decision. The boys were in bed, and Christa and I
spent a while at the kitchen table, going over the treatment plans.
Eventually, we broke out some scratch paper and mapped out the
treatment phases to compare the COG 9904 and 9905 treatment plans.
We wanted to understand the arms better, in light of the info
from the doctor.
Our tentative plan was to procede with the standard risk treament that
Stanford follows, if you're not on study. Apparently they use
9905 arm A. Tomorrow would be a big day.
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Tue, 17 Feb 2004
Day 26, Induction
The word of the day is "bacon". Last night, about every 30
minutes from 2am on, Nate would ask me "how many minutes until
morning". He had bacon on the brain. I was laying with
him so we wouldn't have to get out of bed to check on him every time
he called for us. Of course, it made for a long night. In
the morning, Christa made french toast and, you guessed it, bacon!
What a happy camper he is when he gets fed.
We have an appointment with Nate's oncologist tomorrow, so that we can
get a bunch of questions answered before deciding on his therapy
protocol. That'll be over soon, which is good. Talk about
stress. For better or worse, we'll have made a decision.
Christa headed to her OB appointment this morning, but they had to
reschedule her. The OB was in surgery and had 2 more patients in
labor. So, tomorrow morning at 8:30. That's how it goes.
I'm planning on heading to work for the first time in 4 weeks.
Just a couple of hours to see everyone, and pick up my new
laptop. Gotta get back to contributing at work somehow.
Nate is definately looking a bit different now. His belly is
much bigger around. His face has that tell-tale steroid
roundness to it. He's walking with a bit of a waddle. And,
his hair has gotten real thin. Basically, he looks and walks
like a middle age man with a gut. But he's still my little
buddy.
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Mon, 16 Feb 2004
Day 25, Induction
Another day of playing "what does Nate want to eat?". He eats
constantly. But, he doesn't know what he wants. So we play
20 questions.... "do you want a PB&J sandwich? No. Do
you want a turkey sandwich? No. Do you want some ravioli?
No. Do you want an apple? Nooooo!". I love to
throw the fruit choices in there, because he should eat some good
stuff. But, he gets pissed... really pissed. I've been
told that if I bring him an apple, he's going to throw it at my
eye. He's getting very personal with his threats.
At the end of the day, he asked for funny face pancakes. With
bacon. Kind of like some restaurants do on the kids
menu. We didn't have any bacon, so he got all worked
up. We're still loving how the steroids affect his
emotions. So, when Nana and Papa left, they stopped by the store
and picked up some bacon so we'd have it in the morning. We all
knew that we better damn well have some bacon in the house come
sunrise.
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Sun, 15 Feb 2004
Day 24, Induction
Nate is like a human vacuum cleaner... it's not right to see such a
little guy eat so much. It truly isn't right. Just the
drugs. Who would have thought that sushi and pancakes went
together? (of course the sushi is actually cooked)
Kali came by and went for a walk with Christa. That was great.
I'm glad Christa could get out and get a little
excercise. She's had so much demand on her lately, especially
since I haven't been as much help.
Nate has really taken to playing card games. Of course, that
means one of us has to be playing it with him. He's partial to
playing "war" using a regular deck, he really likes his Uno game (it's
the young kid's version), and a Tonka crazy-8's card game. He
likes to win, but he isn't getting too upset when he
doesn't. The hardest part is to hold the cards in one hand,
while eating with the other.
Nate and
Daddy playing cards.
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Sat, 14 Feb 2004
Day 23, Induction
Valentine's Day. About 7am I started my calls for help. I
couldn't let Nate get sick from me, so I decided I would quarantine
myself to the upstairs family room, and get someone to help out
Christa with the kids. I first called Nana and Papa. They
were up at Lake Wildwood, and I asked whether they knew what was up
with Auntie Vicki and Auntie Reggie for this weekend. I knew
that Nana and Papa were headed up to Redding for Patty's baby shower
up there, but I didn't know about the other aunties. Nana
didn't think they were going, so I called Vicki. It was about
7:30 am on a Saturday, but hey, that's what family is for.
She said that she didn't have any special plans, so she would be
able to come down and stay over at our house to help out. So I
called my mom back and she said that she and dad would head back to
Santa Clara after they were done in Redding, so they could help out on
Sunday. Then Christa called her mom, and grandma Madie and
grandpa Bob came over in the morning to help.
I headed up stairs, and watched TV. And rested. I hate
being sick. What I really hate is that I can't help with the
kids right now. I had been trying to be good, getting to bed
early, just to make sure I would stay healthy. But, I guess my
body gave up the ghost. So, here I am. Now, I need to get
healthy as quick as possible, so that I can be there to help on
Thursday of this week. Nate is due for a BMA (bone marrow
aspiration) and an LP (lumbar puncture, also known as a spinal
tap). The last time we did those procedures, I helped restrain
Nate, even though he was sedated. I'm guessing it's going to be
a long day.
Vicki and Alex showed up, and they were a big help. Nate
actually was hanging out with his auntie, playing card games with her
and other stuff. It was nice to see.
Funny story... Grandma went and got Taco Bell, cause that was what the
prince wanted. So they're pulling out his food, and it turns out
they mistakenly gave hard shell tacos, not soft tacos. Well,
Nate blew a gasket. I'm sure he's going to learn to swear soon.
Christa tried to convince him that she could just put it in a
tortilla, and then it would be a soft taco. He was having none
of it, throwing a complete fit. Grandma walked into the room and
heard that they gave her the wrong thing. So she gets mad, says
"here give me those, I'm going back down there to make them do it
right this time", or something to that effect. Well, Nate quit
his belly aching, and grinned like an imp. I guess that was
exactly what he wanted to hear.
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Fri, 13 Feb 2004
Day 22, Induction
Today started out pretty well. After Thursday's fun, we managed
to get Nate to eat some food. And, it stayed down. That's
a really good thing. He wasn't really complaining about his
belly hurting, no more than a normal day. We had a pretty much
normal day because of this.
Grandpa Bob came over in the afternoon. This gave Christa an
opportunity to run down to a trophy shop. She had spoken on the
phone with them about having a trophy made to celebrate Nate finishing
the Induction phase of this chemotherapy. They said that they
would be able to get it done for Wednesday without any rush charges.
When Christa got back, we were able to do Nate's dressing
change. He started to have a fit, and complained (or screamed,
if you prefer) a bit while the dressing was removed. It actually
came off really easy, so I think it wasn't any real pain, I think it
was really Nate just pissed about being poked and prodded. I got
his caps changed and his lines flushed, so his line maintenance was
done.
We also heard from Stacy, one of the nurses at the clinic.
Christa had called to clarify what protocol the doctor would
want to use if we choose not to enroll in the 9904 study. Stacy
indicated Dr. Marina would want to use arm A of the 9905 protocol.
I have more reading to do to see what that entails. I had
already printed it out, but now I have to understand it better.
This evening, I started to feel like I was coming down with a cold.
I drank one of those vitamin-C packets that Christa likes, and
we got to bed fairly early. About midnight, Andrew woke
up. I was feeling crappy by then, and was starting to run a real
low fever. Christa tried to give him a bottle and put him back
down, but he wasn't having any of it. He wanted to be up, or
something. Of course, Nate woke up in this process
also. So, here we are at 1:30 in the morning, sitting at the
kitchen table with AJ in his high chair, giving him a snack. And
he's busy playing peek-a-boo with us. We got him back to bed,
and this time he stayed, about 2am. Around 6am (really, Saturday
morning), I was running a fever of 101 and felt like crap. I
guess I've caught the flu. That sucks, big time. We can't
afford to get Nate sick.
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Thu, 12 Feb 2004
Day 21, Induction
Clinic day. We headed off to the hospital this morning, with
Andrew in tow this time. This is AJ's first trip to see where
his brother goes. Of course, he really doesn't care. He
just turned 1. However, all the nurses got a chance to fawn over
the little guy. We figured we'll have to figure out how to
manage our hospital visists by ourselves, not always relying on a
babysitter. Today was a good choice, because all we had were
labs and a vincristine injection, so it should be a short day.
In hospital terms, that means probably only a few hours.
Everything went well at the hospital. Nate's bloodwork came
back, and his numbers were up. His Hgb was solid, over
13. His platelets were up to 96 or so, which was good. His
ANC was up over 400. Last week, his ANC was 100 on Monday, 210
on Thursday, and now, a week later, was over 400.
On the drive home, Nate was talking about missing his friends from
school. He named several specifically, from both his current
class, and some from last year. He's still neutropenic, but
maybe soon he'll be able to take a visit back to pre-school to see his
friends. His general stamina is definately down, and he's taking
a couple of naps each day.
We went by the Wendy's drive through for some chicken strips and
fries. Nate's hunger is impossible to satisfy. So, we got
home and ate our lunch.
A little after lunch, Nate started complaining about his belly
hurting... and this is when the day took a turn for the
worse. The pain was bad, and Nate was just
screaming. There was pretty much nothing we could do but hold
him, and put on some cartoons to try and distract him. After a
while of this, he said he felt like he was going to get
sick. So, out came the buckets (which are strategically placed
in the house), and it was a good thing. He spent about an hour
or so, periodically throwing up. Not much fun at
all. Sometime around 4pm he fell asleep, with his head on my
leg. For the next 2 hours, I sat there, trying not to move
(luckily I had the remote control and there was hockey on).
Eventually, I couldn't handle my leg falling asleep, so I moved
him and he slept for another hour or so.
He spent a couple of hours awake, and I managed to get him to eat a
couple of crackers, and sip a little apple juice. He took his
medications, but about 15 minutes later he threw that back up.
Poor guy had nothing in him. I took him to bed, and lay
down with him. He pretty well slept the whole evening
through.
Because he was feeling so bad, we missed our dressing change for his
Hickman catheter. And his evening meds came back up. Not
the best of days.
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Wed, 11 Feb 2004
Day 20, Induction
We've spent the last few days trying to keep up with Nate. He's
not that physically able, but his mind is active. The steroid
makes him a bit restless, and he doesn't stay focused for very
long. He's keeping us busy, getting things out for him to do
just in time for him to switch to something new. That, and
trying to keep him fed. I'm going to hang a sign around his neck
that says "Feed Me".
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Tue, 10 Feb 2004
Day 19, Induction
I've been doing a crash course in leukemia treatment
protocols. The doctor has asked whether we want to be included
in a clinical study for treatment of leukemia. This is study
COG-P9904, treatment for low risk ALL. It turns out that Nate's
leukemia has a genetic characteristic, the TEL/AML1 translocation,
that scientists believe makes it easier to treat. This comes
from prior treatment (backwards looking study), where the success rate
of kids with the TEL/AML1 translocation was higher than those
without. However, all of those kids were treated using a
standard protocol. So, this new study is to determine whether
kids with TEL/AML1 can be treated with less intensive therapy (and
less toxic, meaning less side effects and late effects). If we
choose to enroll, Nate would be randomly placed into one of the arms
of the study. This could mean he would get a more "standard"
intensity therapy, or he might get a less intense therapy.
Our big concern, however, is that if he's treated with the less
intense therapy, he might be more likely to relapse. And,
relapse is a very bad thing. However, the higher toxicity of the
standard therapy means that he would be at greater risk of developing
heart problems, bone problems, liver problems, neurocognitive effects,
etc. How do you choose? And, yet, Christa and I will.
Because we have to.
Continue to learn is the best I can do. We have to decide right
around the end of induction. We've got about a week.
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Sun, 08 Feb 2004
Day 17, Induction
Park Day.
Today was a good day. Somewhere in here Nate decided he wanted
to go to the park and feed the ducks. So we packed up the kids,
some bread and headed off to central park in Santa Clara. The
weather was beautiful, sun was out and it was quite warm. Nate
rode on the swing for just a couple minutes, but tired of that
quickly. We walked over to the pond where the ducks
were. Nate spent a good while tossing pieces of bread to the
ducks. It was pretty fun. Nice to have my old Nate back.
Of course, he didn't last too long. So we all headed back
home.
Nate, Daddy and Andrew at the park.
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Fri, 06 Feb 2004
Day 15, Induction
Nate and I headed off to the Day Hospital at LPCH for a blood
transfusion, while Christa stayed home with AJ. This is the
first time only one of us has gone with Nate to the hospital. He
was feeling pretty good (it's all relative). I packed up a
couple of movies, lunch, and a few toys. After his vitals were
taken, he got a bed. We got him set up in his room, with TV to
watch a movie on. We shared with a little girl, of probably 8 to
10 years old. She was pretty nice, and spent a while playing
video games. The nurses got Nate's transfusion blood hooked up
to his central line, without much fuss at all. I'm so happy we
decided to do the central line. It means that he doesn't have to
get IV sticks or blood draws using a needle. Of course, we have
daily maintenance on the line, but that's not very difficult.
We watched our Hercules DVD, and did pretty ok. Somewhere in
there Nate wanted me to go to the cafeteria for cheese pizza... I got
down there, and there wasn't any. So, I grabbed a bagel and some
cream cheese, and headed back upstairs. The nurses are very
nice, and kept an eye on Nate while I was fetching food. I think
they've seen that once or twice.
Towards the end, Nate was getting a little tired, and he definately
wanted to go home. It was good that everything went smoothly, so
we got out on time and headed home.
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Thu, 05 Feb 2004
Day 14, Induction
Clinic visit day. The day started off pretty good. Nate
woke up complaining that he felt like he was going to throw
up. But he didn't. Then, he got up and was in good
spirits, helping Christa make pancakes. After eating, he started
complaining about his waist hurting again. Lots of crying
out. I don't think his digestive system is back to normal yet.
Grandma Madie came over to watch Andrew while we headed off to the
clinic. At our appointment, they took blood for Nate's labs.
Lynn checked Nate's belly to see if there might be something
causing trouble. She didn't find anything obvious, but she
wanted us to see Dr. Marina just to make sure nothing is being missed.
However, the doctor was not available for while, so we headed up
to the third floor to check out the inpatient kid's play area.
Unfortunately, Nate had gotten the idea that he wanted cheese
pizza, and he's relentless these days when it comes to food. We
would have liked to have him hang out a little more, and become
familiar with the place. We want to take some of the fear out of
the place, because future phases of treatment will require admission
to the hospital.
We ended up down in the cafeteria, eating.... you guessed
it.... cheese pizza. Not the best choice if your stomach is
troubling you, but Nate is nuts for food.
His labs came back and his numbers were down. We're gonna do a
transfusion tomorrow, bring his hemoglobin back up. But, that'll
mean a trip to the day hospital, and at least 4+ hours hanging out
there. Dr. Marina checked out Nate, and her opinion is that he
just has gas in his intestinal tract. They ran another blood
test to check for a potential pancreatic issue, that might account for
the stomach pain. But, it ended up coming back negative.
When we got home, Nate watched a movie, and we got some time with
Andrew. By 8pm or so, both kids were asleep in
bed. Another day down.
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Wed, 04 Feb 2004
Day 13, Induction
Today was a bit of a struggle. Nate was complaining that his
stomach hurt, at different times. However, he just seemed real
emotional, and spent a lot of time crying without being able to say
why. He spent a good while watching TV, took a nap around noon,
and then spent more time watching TV.
I ran out and got 4 new tires on the van, since it really needed them.
Driving up 280 on Monday in the heavy downpour made me realize I
needed to do it soon. My dad went with me, and while they put
tires on the van, he and I had some noodles for lunch. And a
vietnamese iced coffee. It was nice to get out for a
while.
When I got home, I spent time playing with Nate. It was
Transformers vs. Bionicles. He was the Transformers, and somehow
his guys always won.
Nate woke up some in the middle of this night. Christa went in
and comforted him, and ended up sleeping for a while in his bed.
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Tue, 03 Feb 2004
Day 12, Induction
Whooo hoooo!!! We have output.
Nate slept pretty well last night. He woke up in the middle of
the night with a bad dream (I'm sure someone was telling him they'd
have to poke him 2 times, based upon some words he mumbled), so I
crawled into his bed and slept with him. He needs a bigger race
car bed. At least it's a twin, and not one of those little
toddler beds. When he woke up this morning, he called for me to
take him into the bathroom. He sat down on his little potty
(from back when he was potty training so long ago), and managed a
small bowel movement.
After a little bagel and Jamba Juice (ordered with a double-dose of
fiber boost), Nate had another movement, and now things are working
good. It's amazing how happy that can make a parent! We're
hoping this is the end of the stomach pains from the constipation.
The day ended up being a good one. Probably the best in a week
or so. No hospital visits, everything working kind of according
to plan. Nate's even taking his medicine fairly
well. It's amazing that if the only thing that happens is the
outburts and manic behavior caused by the steroids, then this is a
good day.
Christa managed to go work out for a bit. She wants to keep her
strength up, which will help with her pregnancy. And, the
workout should help relieve some stress.
Nate cried out several times during the night, and I ended up
comforting him in his bed.
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Mon, 02 Feb 2004
Day 11, Induction
Still constipated. We talked with Lynn at the clinic this
morning. She wanted us to bring Nate in for a x-ray to check his
abdomen, and of course the usual blood work. The x-ray looked
ok. She said there was a lot of stool in there, but it wasn't
too impacted. So, she gave us a maximun dose of magnesium
citrate for Nate, 2.5 ounces. We mixed it into a glass of
cranberry juice and managed to get him to drink the whole thing with
some lunch. He's still nuts for chips.
We didn't get any production from the magnesium citrate. So,
Lynn got a ducolax pill for Nate to take. These have to be
swallowed whole, so Christa managed to find a jello at the hospital
cafeteria. The guy had to find one in the back and get
approval from his manager. Who would have thought that it's
difficult to find jello in a hospital? We put the pill into a
spoonful of the jello, and fed it to Nate. Ooops... he crunched
the pill with his teeth before swallowing it. A few minutes
later Nate said he felt like he was going to throw up... and that's
exactly what he did. I had the garbage can in the waiting room
handy for it. I thought he was done, and we were trying to get
into the back area and get a bucket, and he managed to throw up on the
floor of the waiting room. Oh well. Poor guy.
After he was done throwing up, Lynn sent us home, telling us to give
him more MiraLax, and another full dose of magnesium citrate.
We managed to get those into Nate before he went to bed.
Another day down, and still no output.
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Sun, 01 Feb 2004
Day 10, Induction
Nate's constipation has persisted. He was up late last night
(1:30 in the morning) with stomach pain. We're dosing him with
magnesium citrate oral solution. The doctor says this is the
more effective of the over the counter laxatives we can give
Nate. He's not having much fun with this, though. More
medicine is not what he's looking for.
Nana came over in the morning to help out with Andrew, because Nate
has been hurting and wanting Mama and Daddy. It's good to be
loved. Nana gave Andrew a bath, which he always
loves. After his morning nap, Nana took AJ over to her house,
fed him lunch and kept him until it was time for his afternoon
nap. Papa came back over with AJ then, and we put him down for
his nap.
We spoke with the doctor and he wants us to give Nate phospho soda
also. This is a saline laxative. We're alternating doses
of the magnesium citrate.
Nate is hungry, but we're not letting him have anything but fruit.
He's quite mad about that, and letting us know.
We spoke with the doctor again, to find out what to expect if we don't
get anywhere. He said that if Nate hasn't had a bowel movement
by tomorrow, then he might have to go into the day
hospital. They would then have to put a feeding tube down his
throat to give him something called "go lightly". Apparently,
it's what they use to prep patients for intestinal type
surgeries. It apparently is very effective at moving
things. But the volume that is required just can't be swallowed
by kids. I guess it's very hard for adults to get it
down. He also said let's double our dosage of the magnesium
citrate.
Nate's got a little gas going, but no BM yet. I'm determined to
keep Nate at this all night long if required, waking him up every 2
hours if that's what it takes to get things done. I really don't
want him to have to go to the hospital tomorrow.
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Sat, 31 Jan 2004
Day 9, Induction
Today is the day my family is going to be in town. We were
supposed to have a combined birthday party for Andrew and Brittanie's
birthdays. However, that was the plan BC (before
cancer). So, all that went out the window.
Nate did great taking his meds this morning. Hardly any
fighting. This is the best day yet for that. Gives us
hope that someday he can just take them without the huge struggles
that cause us all so much stress.
Everyone came down, but they went to my parent's house rather than
ours. My sister's came over, not all at once. Vicki
brought Ali's girls over, and Nate actually went outsite and played
with them a little. He rode his big tricycle around the path
once or so, played in the sandbox a little, and otherwise cruised
around. But, Nate ran out of steam pretty quick (image that) and
came inside. He ended up watching some TV. Everyone ended
up coming over to see him, except for Dale, Missy and Megan. I
guess they had colds earlier in the week, so we couldn't let them near
him.
Nate was having stomach pains, most likely because he's constipated.
We gave him some MiraLax, like we did yesterday, but it didn't
have any results. Christa called the on-call Hemo/Onc and he
said the miralax is more of a maintenance thing. It's not strong
enough if we get behind. So, he said we should get magnesium
citrate and use that. Christa ran out to the store and bought a
bottle, and we started his first dose about 7:30 pm. We're
supposed to give it every 4 hours.
Nate was in quite a bit of pain tonight. We ended up being up
late, because he was crying from stomach pain. This laxative
sure isn't kicking in the way I would like. Nate finally fell
asleep about 1:30 am, leaning against me in bed. I tried not
moving too much, because I wanted him to get some sleep. He
slept till 7:30 am, so we missed his 3:30 am dosage. Oh
well.
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Fri, 30 Jan 2004
Day 8, Induction
This is the day after Nate's surgery. He's been a little sore,
but otherwise ok. We stayed home, which was nice. The
homecare company that is handling our supplies for the Hickman line
sent out a nurse today. Her job was to do training, and to do a
sterile dressing change. The dressing change was
painful. Getting the dressing off induced a lot of crying and
screaming. Nate's too sensitive to that part. Christa did
a lot of the dressing removal, using the adhesive removers.
The nurse did the cleaning of the site, using iodine and alcohol.
I'm not that impressed with her technique. Ok, but not
great. You can just get a sense of these things, and we were
trained very specifically the prior day. However, her flush of
his line I had a real problem with. She cleaned the cap quickly
with an alcohol pad, a little brief in my opinion. She flushed
his line, and then closed the clamp before disconnecting the heparin.
When she took off the syringe, the white valve in the cap never
popped out. I told her that looked wrong, and she said don't
worry about it. It'll eventually pop out. She said she
teaches people this way so that they don't forget to close the
clamp. As soon as she was done, I released the clamp to let the
cap pop out. She was wrong, and we knew it. The positive
pressure in the line should hold the valve out, and seal out
contaminants.
The nurse said something about coming back Monday, for some reason or
other, but Christa and I were pretty sure at this point we didn't even
want her here.
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Thu, 29 Jan 2004
Day 7, Induction
Nate had surgery today. He couldn't eat since midnight, and no
fluids after 6:30 am. His surgery was scheduled for 9:30 am, but
didn't end up happening until a little later. He got a liquid
sedative as part of his prep, which probably helped with the IV
stick. Got this one in the right hand. Not many good
spots left.
His platelets were low from the prior day labwork, so they did a
platelet transfusion. Didn't take too long once they got Nate's
hand positioned just right. His IV was positional, so if he
moved his thumb, it would kind of stop up the IV.
We walked with Nate down the hall to see him off to the operating
room, and he got to keep his green-blankie with him. That is the
single most important thing to him, probably more than Christa, Andrew
or me.... or close to it. They gave us a pager, and said they'd
page us when surgery was done. Rather than sit in the waiting
room during his surgery, Denise from the home pharmacy took us
downstairs to her office where she trained us on how to care for the
new Hickman line. It involves daily heparin flushes, bi-weekly
cap changes, and once a week dressing changes. We practiced on
Chester, her model of a chest with a line protuding from it.
Once Nate was in recovery, we got to go in and see him. We saw
the doctor on the way in and he said everything went just
fine. In recovery, Nate was a little in and out, like most
people. His throat was real hoarse, so we gave him a few sips of
apple juice. His blood pressure was a little high, so they were
watching that. When he was more awake, he told us that he
didn't want apple juice, he wanted BBQ chips. And he was very
serious about it. We had a hard time not laughing about it.
After he was "recovered", we wheeled him down in a wheel chair to
Clinic D. There, he received his vincristine injection into his
cool new central line. It didn't require a needle stick.
What a wonderful thing. Nate kind of felt sick, however,
so they gave him a Zofran, to help. And, we took a bucket home
with us. On the drive home, I sat in the back next to him, and
Christa took us home, nice and slow.
Nate was feeling some pain later, so we gave him some Tylenol 3, which
helps. It also helps him sleep.
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Wed, 28 Jan 2004
Today is Andrew's first birthday.
We're doing our best not to let him get lost in the madness.
Christa asked some of the preschool parents if someone could
bake a cake for Andrew. We had a 1 pm clinic visit. They
tried to get an IV into Nate, but had real trouble. His left
hand was all bruised up from prior sticks, his right had a bruise on
the back from a stick, the crook of his right elbow had a bruise from
a stick, so they tried his left arm. I still had to hold him
still, and tried to get him to use his breathing technique. It's
not as effective as we'd like, but it helps. But, the IV stick
was no use. Poking around in his arm, and Pat couldn't seem to
get it. Nate's veins are not great for the needles. Lynn
walked in after the unsuccessful stick and said to just forget the IV
and we'd just go to the lab for a blood draw. That's easier than
an IV stick. She also new that we wanted to get home to have
cake & ice cream for Andrew.
We had a surgical consult at 3pm. We met with a PNP in clinic C,
and went over his surgery information. He was going to be
receiving a Hickman double ended central line. It would go into
a major artery come out just above his collarbone, snake its way under
the skin down to his chest, not very far from his nipple, where it
would exit the skin. It would have two lines there, and would be
used in the future instead of having to put in IVs. Since Nate's
big fear at this point is the "pricks" as he calls them, this should
make it much easier to go to the hospital.
Next we went to the lab, where he would get a prick. So, the
usual routine of Nate sitting in daddy's lap, where dad could hold him
tight for the technician. Once the needle is in, he settles down
a lot. The anticipation just tears him up.
We got home in time to have some dinner and then cake and ice cream
with Andrew and the grandparent's. Nate ended up sleeping in his
bed during our small celebration.
Another day down, but tomorrow is surgery.
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Tue, 27 Jan 2004
Day 5, Induction
Tylenol 3 is our friend.
Nate woke up at 5:30 am this morning, just screaming. His head
hurt. His jaw, the sides of his head. His
ears. Whatever. But he was just crazy. We gave him
the Tylenol with codeine, and it took almost an hour for it to kick
in. He just screamed, for such a long while. We talked to
the on call Hemo/Onc and she said that if he won't settle down, then
we'll have to take him into the emergency room. The clinic
doesn't open until 9 am, so emergency is our other option.
I called Nana at 6 am, asking for help. The baby had awakened,
but we had our hands full with Nate. We have relied on the
grandparent's so much, I can't possibly imagine how we could get
through this without them. Nana came over quickly, which was a
big help. The on-call doctor had said that we could re-dose Nate
at 3 hours if necessary, and that's what we ended up doing. We
pretty well wiped him out with the codeine by doing that.
It was kind of a long day, and Nate ended up being so zoned
out. He hardly wanted to eat, which makes it tougher to give him
his meds.
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Mon, 26 Jan 2004
Day 4, Induction
Back to the hospital today. We started off with an IV stick,
which always bites. Then blood draw for labs. We moved to
the day hospital for IV fluids, and hung out. The nurses put on
the numbing cream on top of both thighs, in preparation for our
peg-asparignase shots today. He's smart, and he knows what those
patches mean. When the time came, I climbed onto the bed,
sitting behind him, with my legs pinning im in on either side of
his. The nurses took off the patches, sprayed his legs with cold
numbing spray, and then did the injection. One in each thigh
simultaneously. Obviously they know how to do this with little
kids. Nate had an unholy fit leading up the shots, but after he
cracked us up. He said "Oh. That didn't hurt." Yet
again, the anticipation was worse than the event.
The nurses had to observe him for an hour to make sure he didn't have
any reaction from the asparignase. Then we got to go home,
around 6pm.
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Sun, 25 Jan 2004
Day 3, Induction
Today was a day off. No hospital visit.
Today was a great day. Nate and I did a lot of playing. He
seems a little hyped up, maybe because his red blood count is up, and
probably because of side effect of the steroid. He wanted to
chop wood, so chop wood we did. Got out the sledge and wedges,
and split some old wood outside. He stripped bark off the
sections, and checked out all the ants living in there. Then, he
moved on to wanting to dig for treasure. But, we had to rake the
leaves up first, before digging. After raking, out came the
shovels, and we dug for treasure. He was crazy, but fun.
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Sat, 24 Jan 2004
Day 2, Induction
We spent a good chunk of time in the day hospital. Nate still
had the IV that was put in on Thursday, so he was able to avoid a
prick today. He was hooked up and hydrated for several
hours.
His trouble this time was that he didn't want to take his
medication. He was refusing. So, Paige, one of the nice
nurses in the day hospital, got to show us how to force his mouth open
by squeezing his cheeks between his teeth. He took his meds
there, but not by choice.
They took his IV out before we left, since it had been in for a couple
of days already. This means next time, he'll be getting a
stick. That's no fun to look forward to.
This evening Christa and I had to corner Nate, and force his mouth
open to take his meds. Unfortunately, I've had to see the
bruises from this on his cheeks for more than a week
following. Problem with low platelets is the easy bruising.
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Fri, 23 Jan 2004
Day 1, Induction
Nate started his chemotherapy today.
This is day 1 of "induction", the first stage of chemotherapy.
This stage will last for 29 days. The chemo today consists
of a couple of things. A spinal tap (officially a lumbar puncture,
or LP for short) to sample his spinal fluid for testing, and an
injection of Ara-C into his spinal cord. The spinal tap was
similar to the bone marrow aspiration procedure, in that we started by
sedating him. He fought it off pretty well, and was very concerned
about getting a prick in his back. It came down to me and a nurse
holding him still, curled up in a ball on his side, while the PNP
performed the spinal tap. They say they're pretty good at "target
practice" with a moving target, but I'd rather not test their skill.
They took the spinal fluid sample, which drips out clear, and then
injected the chemo drug into his spine. After, he just
rested watching a movie. After a little while we were moved tot
he day hospital for his transfusion. This was going to take
quite a while (4 hours for the transfusion), so it's best over in day
hospital where they have more room and more TV's.
We understood that after the transfusion we'd be going home, and so
that's what we had told Nate. Unfortunately, that wasn't the
case. After the transfusion, they wanted to hydrate him for 3
hours with a bicarbonate solution, to help flush out his
kidneys. The concern is that during the first 5 days of chemo,
they'll be killing so many leukemia cells that preventing an acid
buildup in his kidneys is very important.
Nate was also complaining about his stomach hurting. This was
new since his LP, and the nurses were concerned that somehow it might
be related to that. I suspect he might have pulled a muscle in
his abdomen when he struggled to move during the LP. I had held
his shoulders, head and legs to keep him in the ball shape, and I can
tell you he's pretty strong. Good thing he had the sedative, or
he'd have been real trouble. We ended up giving him a dose of
Tylenol with codeine.
We were sent home with a gaggle of medications for Nate.
Dexamethasone, allopurinol, bicarbonate solution, septra,
zofran, and probably a couple of other things I can't think of
off-hand. This ought to be fun.
Nate wasn't happy about having to stay, and he kept asking to go home.
This was another long day. We'd been at the hospital all
day. When we left, he fell asleep in the car on the way home
again. Nate was loopy up in the car for a while, though. I
told him he was "loaded", and he said "bang bang bang... loaded like a
bullet". Christa and I couldn't help but crack up. He then
freaked out because he said our van was driving down the road on its
side. Then he fell asleep. Again, we had a long quiet
drive home.
When we got home, Nana & Papa, Grandma Madie & Grandpa Bob,
and Auntie Vicki and Alex were there. And, of course, Andrew was
there. Vicki had driven down from Davis to see her little buddy.
She brought balloons for Nate, and he played with her for a
while. He was absolutely silly, probably from the
codeine. And, a little mean.
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Thu, 22 Jan 2004
Diagnosis
Nana and Papa came over to watch AJ in the morning. We had to
get up to the hospital at a reasonably early time. We drove the
truck, which was kind of a mistake. The parking garage at the
children's hospital really doesn't accomodate big vehicles very
well.
We went to clinic D, which is the oncology and hematology clinic.
We checked in, and they took Nate to get vitals (temperature,
blood pressure, height, weight). Then they put some lidocaine
solution on the backs of both hands, and on his lower back, where the
bone marrow sample would be taken from. Then they sent us into
room 2, where we waited a bit. Some nurses came in, and it
seemed they wanted to get started placing an IV. We hadn't
even seen the doctor yet. The nurses had orders to take a bone
marrow sample from Nate, so that's why they wanted to prepare
him. When they figured out that we hadn't even talked to the
doctor yet, they slowed down, and found the doctor.
Dr. Marina came in and met us. She's very competent, and tries
to keep a bit of levity in the conversation. Pretty much the
first thing she said was that after looking over Nate's bloodwork from
the prior day, she's going with a working assumption that he has
leukemia. This was quite a blow for Christa and I. Nobody
so far had said they thought he might have cancer. We feared
that, and had done some reading on it the night before, but here it
was right out in front of us now. As Christa says, it's a good
thing she told us with Nate in the room, because it sort of inspires
you to stand strong.
The doctor explained that they would use a procedure called bone
marrow aspiration to take a sample of his marrow, so that it could be
analyzed. They would put an IV in him, sedate him to make him
sleepy, give a local anesthetic in the tissue of his lower back, upper
bottom, where the needle would go through to the back of the pelvic
bone. Apparently that's one of the easiest places to take a
sample.
She explained that within a couple hours after the sample, she would
be able to diagnose if it was leukemia. There are different
types of leukemia, so if it was, then more time would be needed to
identify specifically which type it is.
Following the discussion, the nurses came to install the first IV of
Nate's life. It was not a pleasant experience. I had to
hold him in my lap, and help hold his arms. One nurse helped
hold his hand, while the other nurse tried the vein in the back of his
hand. That poke was unsucessful. They then tried the vein
on the back of the same hand, closer to the thumb. That was a
successful stick. Nate was able to finally calm down after they
had taped up the IV.
We went to the procedure room, just down the hall. It's a small
room, with two beds in it. They have a TV with a VCR in there,
and a cabinet with a bunch of kids videos. This is a great
thing. We put on a video. The PNP (Pediatric Nurse
Practitioner) that is caring for Nate came and administered a sedative
into Nate's IV. Then we waited. The idea was for him to
get sleepy. After a bit, he did become sleepy. However, he
never fell asleep. Anytime anyone moved around him, he kept
asking if he was gonna get a prick now. When the time came, we
rolled him over on the table. Nate kept trying to turn and look
behind him, asking "Am I gonna get a prick now?" The nurses had
all assured him, multiple times, that they would tell him when they
were going to do something. They would never surprise
him. So, after they peeled the tegaderm patch off his backside
that had the lidocaine cream to numb the skin, and cleaned the site,
they told him they were going to start. I held his shoulders and
head down, and a nurse held his feet. They injected a local
anesthetic to help numb the tissue. Then, they used the large
needle (looks like a stainless steel tube) and inserted that into the
back of the pelvic bone. The doctor had explained that they can
numb the tissue, but they can't numb the bone. It didn't look
pleasant, and from his crying I'm sure it didn't feel good. They
took a bunch of vials of marrow, which pretty much just looks like
blood. When they were done they pulled out the big needle, and
put a bandage on the site.
Nate rested afterwards, half sleeping, half watching his movie.
The rest of the day is sort of a blur in my memory now. We
met sometime in the afternoon with Dr. Marina, where she informed us
that Nate has ALL, or acute lymphoblastic leukemia. She told us
that it would be a couple of more hours before they determined whether
it was of the B-cell variety or the T-cell type. We were
definately hoping for the b-cell type, as it's easier to treat.
Apparently the T-cell type likes to move to the spinal fluid, or
something like that. And, it would require radiation treatments
to the cranium, or something. It sure didn't sound good.
Later, we were moved to the day hospital, which is next door to the
clinic. Nate was on hydration, and they wanted to transfuse
him. It was getting late by this point. The nurse started
the transfusion. About 15 minutes into his transfusion, his
temperature had raised by 1 degree C, so they stopped the transfusion.
Two main reasons could be either infection, or a transfusion
reaction. To rule out infection, they needed to do a blood
culture from a clean site... that meant another needle stick for Nate.
Poor guy, it had been such a long day, and I had to hold him for
yet another "prick", as he calls them. No infection was
determined, so it was ruled a transfusion reaction. The
solution... pre-medicate him next time with Tylenol. So the
transfusion was called off, and we would need to do one the next day.
The doctor found us at some point to give us the good news that the
leukemia was of the B-cell variety. We were dealt a bad hand,
but at least there's a good card or two in there. She explained
that sometime during the next several weeks, Nate would be classified
as high risk, normal risk or low risk, according to a number of
criteria. This would help determine what his treatment will be
over the subsequent months.
We were wiped by the end of this day. The stress of everything
was just overwhelming. The drive home was so long. What
can you say to each other as your 4 year old boy is sleeping in his
car-seat, and you've just learned today that he has cancer? As
I lay Nate into his bed, he rubbed his backside and asked me why he
was sore back there. Apparently the sedative really does make
him forget. For that I'm very thankful. Late this evening,
after everyone was gone and Nate and Andrew were sleeping, we sent an
email message out to some friends and family. If you didn't get
the email, please forgive us. It was the end of the single
longest day of our lives. Here is that message.
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Wed, 21 Jan 2004
Something is wrong.
We took Nate to his pediatrician's office for a CBC blood
workup. His pediatrician ordered a CBC to see what was going on
with his blood cell counts, and a lead test to check for environmental
factors possibly causing his anemia. This required drawing a
couple vials of blood from his arm, and I had to physically restrain
him so they could do the blood draw.
After the blood was drawn, we left the office. Christa went home
with the kids, and I headed in to the office. Christa called me
a little before noon, and said that the pediatrician
called. Nate's labs showed his hemoglobin had dropped further,
and his iron was on the high end of normal. His anemia was
obviously not caused by an iron deficiency. Our pediatrician had
called the hemotology doctors at Lucille Packard Children's Hospital
and consulted with them. They scheduled an appointment for us
for Thursday, the next morning. And, it was likely that they
would do a bone marrow aspiration. This involved taking a sample
of bone marrow for analysis. Because of this, we had to follow
pre-operative instructions with Nate. No food after midnight,
only clear liquids.
When Christa told this to me, I was stunned. I walked into an
empty office at work and talked with her. She was very upset,
and I was getting there. My mind was racing, as to what could be
the deal. Our doctor had not mentioned the possibility of
leukemia, but to us it was obvious that his anemia was out of the
normal. I was very concerned. After talking to Christa, I
left the building. I went for a walk, very upset. I
stopped and sat on a curb, and called my parents. I told them I
needed their help. I explained that we needed to take Nate to
the Children's Hospital at Stanford the following morning, and that we
would need someone to watch the baby. My dad said absolutely,
they would. He also tried to reassure me, calm me down a little.
Just a little later I walked back to the office. My boss, Gene,
called me on my cell, wondering if everything was ok. When
Christa had called, I was in a meeting. I stepped out to take
her call, and I never returned. I told him that no, I wasn't
really ok. That I had to take care of some family stuff.
A few minutes later, I walked into the office, and Gene saw me.
He said "what are you still doing here?" I replied that I
needed to grab my laptop, and bag. As I walked through the
office, one of my co-workers was trying to ask me a
question. Gene ran interference, so I could just grab my stuff
and head home.
That afternoon and evening was a long wait. Christa and I
alternated lookup up information on the web regarding
anemia. There seem to be lots of different diseases that can
cause it, one of them being leukemia. We were really hoping that
Nate's anemia was caused by nothing too serious.
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Mon, 15 Dec 2003
December, 2003
Nate had been acting a little sluggish for a while. We first
noticed when the pre-school year started that he seemed to be kind of
tired. He really didn't seem to be clicking as much at school,
but then again he was in a class with new students (we kept him in the
3's class, while most of his former class mates went on to the 4's
class), who were much younger than him.
He caught the flu earlier this month, just like the rest of us in the
family (all 4 of us got it). After the flu, it did seem that
every few days maybe he wasn't really feeling up to par.
We took him to the pediatrician to have him examined. She
checked him out, and also we did a finger-prick blood test, which I
believe is a check mostly for hemoglobin. I had to physically
hold him down while they did the test, because he's definitely afraid
of being "pricked". The results came back that he was a little
anemic, but most of the time that is due to low iron. We have
been lucky that Nate would always eat a good, varied diet, so this
seemed a little surprising. However, I had a low hemoglobin
condition when I was a kid, and took an iron supplement for a
while. So, we started an iron supplement. A fairly nasty
tasting liquid. He did a great job with it, and learned how to
shoot it, like a shot of tequila. Apparently, he's ready for
college.
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